I WANT TO KILL MYSELF… is just what she said… she said that in the misc of the day. She said she wanted to kill herself. I will never forget those words… but why she never told me… why? Lucy… Lucy was her name. She is an amazing girl; she doesn’t realize I love her… I want to be with her. I don’t want her to kill herself. Lucy and I are the best of friends, but I just want more from her, other than friends. Well… I don’t know, I’m going to go find her, and ask her why she said that…
CHAPTER 1: questions
“Lucy, why won’t you tell me why you said what you said”? “Well, Taylor, I just can’t, it’s between me, myself, and I.” “Lucy, don’t get all smart ass with me, why won’t you tell your best friend this? I’m your best friend, you can defiantly tell me anything, I will always have your back.” “Taylor, I just can’t tell you, it’s just, I can’t tell you, I’m sorry, it hurts me too much to tell you.” “But luc, you can tell me ill feel sympathy for you.” “What does that even mean Taylor”? “Forget it, just I’m out, if you can’t tell your best friend why, then I’m not going to talk to you until you tell me.”
“Wait Taylor, I’ll tell you… sit down. Taylor I didn’t want to tell you because it hurts me to say it and its going to more than likely hurt you. I’m moving. To New York.” I was still, as still as a pole, my pupils got huge, the size of a black hole, beads of sweat came running down my cheek, then I realized I was crying… “Taylor.. I, I never wanted to tell you, but I have to, I’m moving because my dad got a new job as an architect and well his new office is pursuing in new York. Trust me; if I could take you with me, I would… but I can’t, I just can’t Taylor.” I got out of there as quick as I could, I ran to my car, driving away as fast as I could. I thought to myself why I said anything, I wish I didn’t, and then my phone started to ring…
“Hello?” “:hi its Bryan, want to come over:” “no, Bryan I don’t I got bad news and I’m pissed off, I just want to go home and sit in my chair.” “:oh well okay, were having a barbeque, so if you want come over when you want:” “okay Bryan bye.” I threw my phone on the leather seat. It made a smack sound that meant reality is in my car. I got home and I went to my room ignoring everything anyone said to me. I got on the computer and went on splurge chatting. I grabbed a soda from my mini fridge and sat in my chair. Lucy wanted to chat.
“Taylor, are you okay? cause if you’re not I can…” I stopped her I said “no, Lucy I don’t want you to come over. You know what, this is possibly horrible, sure I’m rich, and I have a nice home, and a nice car, and nice clothes, but I need my best friend. I need you Lucy. I honestly need you.” “Well, Taylor I’m sorry, I can’t do anything about it. I’m sorry, but just get over it.” I clicked the off button on the computer. My parents yelled “Taylor come down here, we need to talk to you about something important.”
“Ya, what did you guys need?” I said with lousiness in my voice “Taylor, your dad got his job moved, fortunately, we can choose to live in Texas, Arizona or New York.” I froze, I felt tingly, and kind of larky, I felt happy, but sad. “Well, were do you guys want to live?” “We were thinking about Texas, but your sister wants New York. What do you want?” “New York!!” “Well, I guess its New York then, don’t really want to leave Newport Beach though.” “Well we have to, and how long do we have until we move?” A month…” “What part of New York?” “Manhattan.” “Well okay then. I guess I better go tell Lucy.”
