Poems and Shit

Why I Sleep All Day

Why do you sleep all day?

A question from my father.

Work and priorities loom over me as I lay there

Anxiety stays next to me like a lost dog

And depression has become my new best friend.

But I don't say that.

"I'm tired" I tell him.

And that wasn't a lie.

I am tired, just not the tired most assume.

I'm tired of having to pretend

I'm tired of masking my fears

I'm tired of not being able to talk because I'm crying and not breathing normally

I'm tired of panics attacks

And mood swings

And loneliness

And feeling helpless.

And you say that sleeping won't help my kind of tired, but it does.

My eyes are closed

My body calm.

I am unconscious to the world.

My mind creates dreams of places I would rather be

And the happiness I wish I could have

So I sleep as much as possible.

"I'm tired.

I'm just tired."

-k