He saw me crying

About me

January 23, 2016
So my mom bought me this journal thing. The thing is, she needs to stop. I'm not a little kid anymore. She tells me I can write anything in here. I think she wants me to talk about my feelings. She thinks I don't know. Well let me tell you about myself. My name is Samantha. I'm 15. I spend most of my time watching Hunter Rowland, and I pretty much like whatever girls my age like.
I'm an average person. I have long brown wavy hair. I have brown eyes. I'm as simple as it gets. I'm not pretty. My friends just tell me that. I wish I was, but then no. I like being me.
Let me tell you about about my crush. I love him. A lot. More than you can imagine. He seems to be the type of guy that would be nice and would be there through everything. He's none other than Hunter Rowland. I knew that the chances of me ever meeting him was none. I can't believe that even my friends repeated that to me. Life can be very heart breaking. I'll admit I had a major crush on him, but it was weird to me.
My friends ask me why I like him, even though I haven't met him. You know what I say: Well you can say whatever you want, I can handle my weird and unorganized life how I want. It's just complicated.
They don't know the tough times I go through just thinking about him. They don't understand the feelings I get when I see him on my notifications.
You know how people say they get butterflies when they fall in love, well the strange thing is that I get more than butterflies. It's really hard to explain. He just has me in my feelings. When I see that he has posted a new picture on Instagram, I get on there very fast because it feels like it's been a long time. He can be on younow and then get off and I'll miss him. Why? Well, I love him. He brings a smile on my face when ever he's live on younow. He's my one and all. I think about him more than I should. That's all for today diary. Time to come to an end.

LOVE,
SAM