if I eat:
-I will get even fatter
-nobody will like me if I'm fat
-I will never be good enough for him or for anyone
-people will talk about me and how I was doing so well, but then I gained weight again
-I will hurt myself
-I will regret it
-I will be unhappy forever
if I don't eat:
-I will feel weightless
-I will lose weight
-I will be pretty and I will be good enough for everyone
-I will love myself
-he will finally notice me
-no more people laughing at me
-my self esteem will get higher
-people will give my compliments, no more criticizing
-I will not need to purge
-I will not cut myself, nor hurt myself
-I will be happy when I'm skinny
-I will see my bones
-I will not be ashamed of anything
-I will be that pretty girl I always wanted to be
