ive been thinking lately, properly, and it has scared me. For the first time in what seems like forever I have been truly evaluating myself and my choices and I have to say I think its down to being on this site and talking to some very special people.
I haven't been me for the past few years, I've been that guy who is always getting smashed and drunk leering on girls and guys. But that's not me.
I've been blasting rap music down my ears despite the fact that I know the melodies of Sam Smith soothe my soul. I wear my jeans hanging low and snapbacks despite feeling more comfortable in a beanie and jeans actually where they are supposed to be.
I don't know, I've been fake which is something I hate to admit. I haven't really opened up to anyone, I haven't shown people my writing. I suppose its cause I'm scared to show people the real me, what's really going on in my head.
I'm glad I get to write this down. It's almost like therapy.
