The One for Me

I loved the way his eyes looked at me with respect. Not only because I told him I thought that we should only have a working relationship (as much as he and I both knew we wanted more than that), but because of how I shaped my life and just the way I act demanded I was to be respected (or so i'm told by the people I work with). If you look past the respect he held in his eyes there was something more. It almost looked like adoration. 

I admit in a selfish way I loved that look in his eyes. Even if I told him I don't like him, except for being a friend and a friend only. I mean a girl can take pleasure of a man that looked like Heaven itself. God, could you blame me?

That adoration is like a father seeing his newborn baby and wondering what his world was like before he looked into his baby's eyes for the first time. Before he held his baby for the first time. 

I mean I feel like the baby in that story. Loving the attention but not understanding why I was getting it especially since he was such a good looking guy and I was just...me.

I mean it wasn't just the look in his eye that made me love him but it was part of it.

Honestly I wished he didn't leave. I mean with all my life I wish he didn't just pack up and leave without saying a word to me. I deserve the part of not knowing where he was going and it wasn't like I wasn't the one who ended it; it still didn't mean it didn't hurt. For god's sake! I was in love with the guy who told me that he was in love with me last night at dinner. And when he asked me if I was in love him, I made the right choice: I lied. This meant I said no. That was a mistake on my part. Partly because he left and partly because I looked in his eyes and lied to him.

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Hey everyone! This is just a short part of chapter one. I wanted to see how many people like it so far before I continue on with it. I am hoping to finish the first chapter soon, but that doesn't mean I don't want any of you guy to NOT tell me your opinions. Also, please feel free to help with any mistakes I made. 

Thank you for reading!

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-Jess