Have that one picture on the wall;
The one of me and you being friends and enjoying everything with a smile.
Have that CD on my nightstand;
The One Direction CD that I bought you for your birthday.
I remember how much you loved it. I would sit through the songs everyday.
Have your extra jewelry box in our dresser,
The one you used when you wanted or needed to.
Have your clothes, your favorite foods, your favorite books and your favorite childhood memories.
I still have them,
But there's one thing I don't have.
You.
I've lost you,
And I can never get you back.
You're gone,
And I never knew.
Have that one peice,
The second half of our friendship necklace.
I found you wearing it,
Even when you were mad at me.
I'm sorry..
I wasn't there for you every minute of your life.
I should've paid attention,
I should've known.
Know your family as if they're my own,
Know your favorite color,
Know your favorite fashion combination.
I still know them,
But there's one thing I don't have.
You.
I've lost you,
And I can never get you back.
You're gone,
And I never knew.
You smiled so much,
I don't know why I couldn't tell you were being troubled.
I don't know why you didn't tell me,
Didn't say who hurt you.
You hurt yourself,
Outside and inside.
You built stress onto your life.
It killed you inside,
Crushed you to pieces,
And I didn't know.
Why didn't you tell me?
I thought we were like sisters..
Sisters tell each other everything.
Something like this...
How could you keep it in?
Why didn't you tell me?
You could've broken down in my arms.
You know I'm always there for you,
So why?
Why didn't you tell me?
It was too late, because..
That one day,
The day where I walked in to find the most hurtful thing possible.
I walked into our room,
And I found you bleeding to death in our Share Time Window.
You had a note beside you.
I picked it up.
It read:
Dear sister,
I love you, and I'm sorry I can't tell you this in person. You know school, right? Well, people have been judging me everytime I have classes without you. It's been happening for a year, and I can't do anything. It's become intolerable; I can't take it anymore! So, goodbye, and I love you more than anything.
I'm crying,
Tears are trickling down my face.
Why?
What did they say?
I could've helped you!
I..
But..
I couldn't have.
I can't believe this.
Please...
Tell me this is just a dream..
I'm not fine.
I'm not fine at all.
I've lost you,
And I can never get you back.
You're gone,
And I never knew.
I've lost you..
I've lost you...
I've lost you..
◆This is based off a past incident. I want to tell you...
If someone bullies you to the extent where you want to harm yourself, please don't. Don't give in because that makes them stronger and you weaker. Tell a person you trust about the bullying. It can be anyone; friend, sibling, parent, cousin, uncle, aunt, grandparent, teacher, principal... anyone. Just, please don't fall into their trap. Actually having self-harm (suicidal) thoughts as a symptom of something like depression, which is something you get diagnosed with, is a different story. But if that's not the case, if someone is bullying or abusing you, tell someone. No matter what, there will always be a person who cares about you and your wellbeing. I don't want any of you to suffer what I have, and I certainly don't want you to suffer what people who have suicidal thoughts have. I care about you, whether I know you in real life or not. Talk to me, if you have to. Don't go to extreme measures like this. Please don't. Thank you for reading all of this. I hope you've learned something.◆
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This isn't funny, it's serious. Please take it seriously. Suicide and depression and anxiety aren't things to joke about. They're actual things people suffer, and by making fun of them, you're hurting so many people around the world.
Always offer a smile, or a hug.
You see that one girl/boy sitting alone at lunch? Walk up to them and talk, unless you know they're trouble.
Yeah, your parents might get mad at you if you come back home past your curfew, but a part of them was worried about their baby, whether it shows or not.
Thank you.
~Silent
