Only love

Intro

Hi my name is Lacy Smith an I am in the 12th grade my best friend works for 5seconds of summer am I want to meet Luke hemmings. She told me I could come with her to a concert she is their back-up dancer an she is going there TOMORROW night! I finish writing this in my journal that says diary. Ok maybe it is a diary but who else can I tell that I do self harm (cut, choke,  thoughts) my mom. Yea I wish she would flip shit.  I mean she is the best/most understanding mom but she would still flip shit. I get up from my vanity with all my make-up on it an shut an lock my diary. I pull on a sweater so I could hide my cuts. I walk into the bathroom. Looked in the mirror an then walked out. I ran downstairs to talk to my mom an she was in the middle of cooking dinner. "Mom I need some money" I said.

"Why sweetie your not gonna go get drugs are you?" She joked.

I laughed an said "no mom I'm gonna go to the mall with Maddie"

"Ok sweetheart" she reached into her purse an pulled out 2 $100 dollar bills.
She handed them to me an I hugged her neck.

I didn't notice but my sweater sleeve fell up an my mom saw my cuts. She gave me a disappointed look an I said " momma it's pencil not razor blade"

"Um hm" she said an handed me the 2 $100 bills then went back to cooking.

I heard a horn honk an I automatically know it was Maddie coming to pick me up. I took off my sweater an threw it on the chair in the living room. I ran out the door an Maddie knows I cut so she doesn't care if I wear a sweater or not.

She yelled " get your ass over here we need to get you some cuter cloths for tomorrow!!!"

I jumped in her car. (She has one that has no roof.) she speed off.

Wrists are for bracelets not for cutting.