Off Limits

Chapter 21

Jamie's POV

"I know you wanted me because Sam had me. But, why?"

I asked as I crawled over and stood on the rug. Nate has been good, but sometimes he takes it too far. He has no filter with his words and actions and people can take it the wrong way. I don't know if I want to tell him how I lost my virginity before he tells me about his love life--well our love life. He lays back on the bed and inhales sharply.

"Sam had you. You answered it yourself. I have always been jealous of Sam, I admit it. He had you and to hurt him, I had to have you. When you came upstairs with me the day before he beat me up, it was my chance to rub in his face that I won. For the first time, he was in second place,not me. Jamie I'm so sorry. But it's true."

I exhaled loosely as I let a tear roll down my cheek. Jealous? To hurt him? Does that mean--no--what if--he never truly loved me. I took a step back and gulped down my pain.

"If you were jealous, and you just wanted to be ahead of Sam, why me? What did I ever do to you? I understand that you used to hit on Emily because Sam slept with kaylan but, what did I ever do to you?"

"You loved Sam. Thats what you did to me. Why couldn't you have loved me? Why couldn't you have dreamt about me and hung out with me every day? Why couldn't Cameron have beaten me up because I loved you so much? Why you? Jamie, the real question is, why not me?"

I can't believe he said that. I've always loved him. I've always cared. Why does he think I don't care?

"Nate, I do care, I do love you, I had the biggest crush on you. I've liked you since the fourth grade. You hated me. That's why I never asked you out or hung out with you. I was scared that you would hate me more than you already did. Do you even love me?"

He stood up and walked to the bedroom door and looked back.

"I didn't love you. But, since Sam has been out of the picture, I do now."

He turned away and walked out slamming the door, leaving me breathless soaked in my tears and sorrow.

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Sorry it's so short I have so much homework and I just got a new English teacher so everything is all messed up in class now. I'll try to update as soon as I can. Sorry.

Ps- I love you guys. A lot.