My First Love

Chapter Five.

"Fuck!" I shouted.
"What's wrong your "friend" found out about me?" Jake said with a smirk on his face.
"His name is Luke by the way."
      I walked away from Jake and by my surprise he didn't follow me. I though he would have. I make it to the car and Agustin is waiting for me.
"Luke looked sad and pissed off but here's the letter he told me to give to you" Agustin hands me the letter and I take it out of his hands and read it once I opened it.

Dear Soph,
I wanted to write you letter telling you how I feel about you. I know it's lame but I want you to know I really care about you. I'm glad Jake left so I could be there for you and replace him. I'm glad your ex fucked up because I would get the chance to help you and be everything you want. I know we're not dating but I really do love you. These four years knowing you has shown me that your everything I want and need. From friends to best friends to lovers to hopefully a real relationship? I hope I'm not pushing you or something but I really want you to be mine.
Love, Luke.

"Fuck fuck fuck!" I shout once again.
"What's wrong?" Agustin looks worried.
"Luke confessed that he wants to date me and that he loves me. I can't believe he saw me and Jake kiss."
"You kissed Jake? Why would you kiss Jake knowing you have Luke and plus it's that fuckers first day!" Agustin shouts at me and it knocks some sense into me. It's his first day back and he fucked up my sexual thing with Luke or whatever we have.
"He kissed me.....but then again I didn't push him away. I think I do have small feelings for Jake because if I didn't I probably would have pushed him" I sigh.
"Let's go to your house and once we get there you better call Luke. I mean you guys should be together but your stubborn" he has a point.
      Once we got home I called Luke right away to come over and by my surprise he agreed. I ran downstairs waiting for him to come since he didn't really live that far. Agustin comes up behind me and hugs me.
"If things don't work out you will always have me. I'll turn straight for you any day babe" Agustin kisses my cheek and goes to the kitchen after he saw Luke's car pull up. I was too worried what will happen between me and Luke to laugh at his joke.
      Luke walks up the door and knocks and I open it afterwards. I immediately hug him when the door is out of our way.
"I'm so sorry Luke I didn't mean to. I saw your letter. I want to be with you too. Fuck Jake I want you. You have been there for me since day one after he left. You were the one always there for me" I felt his arm wrap around my waist while he tilts my head back to make me have eye contact with him.
"Do you want to go out with me?" He asks me.
"Of course I do" I kiss him but it doesn't feel the same.
I kissed him and it didn't have the effect on me as it always does....I though of Jake in the back of my mind. What the fuck did I just do. I have to forgot about me and Jake. I really like Luke and want to be with him but why is Jake slowly creeping into my mind when I kissed Luke just now.