Lie To The Truth (Ryden)

love is all i'm really after.

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It was too early to function but yet I was up for reason.

We pasted field after field. No matter how many miles we had gone, the landscape outside hasn't changed at all.
Even though it was almost too dark to see, the feel of calmness in the environment helped relax me.
I was sitting in the lounge area which was slightly illuminated by a dim candle with only a book in my hands.
Reading helped calm me a lot, especially whenever something was on my mind, and right now, I had too much on it.
This new tour was really taking it all out of me. There were so many things to be concerned about: who would come, how much money we spend... There's just too many to name.

"Ryan, what are you doing up??" I heard from behind my book which I had basically became buried in.
Jon was standing there, obviously he had just gotten up to use the bathroom or something, his voice was duller and he was a lot slower.

"Yeah,, um I've just got a lot on my mind. Sorry for bothering you." I said, rubbing the back of my neck awkwardly.

"Nah, it's fine." He said, continuing to head to the bathroom.

I really hope I hadn't kept up the other guys. Tomorrow was our first show and they needed every bit of sleep they could get.
My nerves were on the edge, I almost started shaking at the thought of what could happen.

Why was I acting this way, I've been doing this for more then 5 years.

Maybe it could be,,,,

No. No way it could be.
It was already decided, I'm away from him now.

Maybe it was time to try to sleep, all these thoughts were just giving me even more anxiety.

I blew out the candle and climbed into my bunk, preparing myself for staring into darkness, knowing I probably wouldn't get any sleep but it was worth the try.

Tomorrow was probably going to be one of the most depressing days of my life.