The vampire and me

Preface

"sometimes you put walls up not to keep people out , but to see who cares enough to break them down"-Unknown

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"I trusted you but now your words mean nothing to me, because your actions spoke the truth" - My Dear Valentine

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" I had never thought that something that brought, so much joy could bring so much pain"-My Dear Valentine

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"Everyone says that love hurts, but that's not true. Loneliness hurts, Rejection hurts, Losing someone hurts Everyone confuse these things with love. But in reality Love is the only thing in this world that covers up all the pain and makes us feel wonderful again"- Unknown
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"Maybe I don't cry but it hurts, maybe I won't say but I feel, maybe I don't show but I care"-My Dear Valentine
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"Its funny how the people that hurt you the most. are the ones that swore they never would"-Unknown
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I'd never thought about death or dying before. I never thought that I would experience both until I met a certain someone. Even in a few months of knowing that person. would you do anything for them. die for them, go through pain, suffering and death for them and even risk your own life for them as well. So here I am waiting for the pain, death and suffering to come. I have fear in my eyes as I waited for the hunter to come murder and kill me.

I am like a deer and a scared rabbit that is just waiting in the forest surrounded by danger and death. just waiting to be murdered, killed and hunted down like some scared animal and creature that is to dumb and stupid to do anything to stop the hunter from hurting and torturing me until my body gave up and let the hunter win.

surely and maybe it is a good and stupid idea to die in the place of someone that I love and care about. dangerous, dumb and stupid even, that had to count for something right. I know it is the right and wrong choice and decision for me to make no matter what the consequences are and will be, if i do have to make a choice in the future even if I don't like the choice.

I know that if I didn't come to Oakman that I would probably regret it but also that I wouldn't be facing death and dying right now and to say that I wasn't scared, frightened and terrified is definitely understament. I am very terrified and scared that I can't do anything about it even if I needed and wanted to. to say that I regret the choice to leave Tucson and come to Oakman isn't a terrible and stupid mistake because clearly it most definitely isn't and I don't regret making it at all. also i'm happy and glad that i have made the choice of coming to Oakman. and when you have a choice between life and death what would you decide if it evolved everyone that you love and care about even your own enemies lives.

what would you do and decide if life offers you a dream so far beyond any of your expectations that you never thought that you would get offered in your entire boring and no fun life. is it not reasonable to grieve when it comes to an end of someone's life or your own and also when you have to face death and dying. The hunter came closer and closer to me and he smiled at me in a scary, weirdo and friendly way as he saunters forward to kill me he has a sharp knife with him to kill and murder me with. But weirdly and in a strange way I am letting the hunter come and kill me which is sort of comforting in a weird way.

(A/N This is a new book that I'm writing I hope you like and if you don't then DON'T READ IT love from Vampirequeen1234)