waiting for a long time

I walk out of the room as possible. I can't take it anymore. Hopefully they won't notice. They probably won't, I eman there's a lot of people out there , no one would see a tiny brown haired girl with a black dress leaving the room. I was literally invisible. On the way out of the house, I take a look in the mirror. My hair, straight as always, covering half of my face. My nose crooked and my brown eyes full of pain and sadness. No make up on my face, I don't like it. Only my lips are covered in a nude lipgloss. I continue my way out of the house, walking slowly toward the yard. My shoes are killing me but because of my shortness,  I have to wear heels. I stop infront of a row of red roses. My bacl against the wall, I shift my head and look at the moon thinking about what hust happened. They have no right to embarasse me like that. The worst part is that my mom also participated in that.... "scene". I mean... sure I once had a crush on him but I was a child people. Why don't you get it? He is like a brother to me, a brother that I never had. And though I'm over that crush now, you still can't tease me about it. I mean not infront of everyone, specially not..." My train of thoughts stops when I hear footsteps coming towards the yard. it's probably one of the guests who's leaving or something like that. "Hey" a voice ( which I recognize easily) says. "Hey# I answer trying to keep my feelings out of my voice. "What's up?" he asks standing infront the wall beside me. Not to close for our skins to touch but I still could butterflies  in my stomach. "Nothing much. you?" I amswer fighting the urge to turn my head and look at his deadly handsome face. " Nothing either. I just came after you. Whu did you leave? did something happened?" he asked turning a little so now he's looking at me. 'oh my God. He noticed I'd left. He came after me. He... oh don't be silly.' I told my self 'Nothing is weird about this. He probably was standing beside the door when I left and was bored so he decided to follow me or something ' I shook my head and say "Nothing. just got bored, decided I may enjoy some fresh air" "Arrow" oh my God, only him calling my name make the butterflies in my stomach move even faster... if that's possible. "Don't lie to me" he continues. "I'm not lying Edred " I say looking at him. Even in my heels I'm shorter than him. His brown eyes locked on mine with different emotions and his beautiful mouth pressed into a hard line and his not-too-short-not-too-long hair fallen onto his face. "Then why are you crying?" What? Was I crying? I hadn't notice it before. Was I really crying? for how long? I was going to wheep them off but he suddenly brought his hand to my face and stroked my cheek with his thumb. I could feel electricity  ecery where his thumb touched my face. why was he doing this? He probably didn't know what was he doing to me, in the best way he probably thought of me as a sister. "So tell me. why are you crying? who did this to you? " His face was so close , if he was a little bit closer I could've frlt his breath on my face. " Did you heard that upstairs? " I ask praying to God he says no. " Will yoi feel better if I say no?" he asks but I can't feel anything  in his voice which says he's making fun of me. his voice only folled with concern.... as if he's really worried if his answer will hurt me or something. 'So you heard it... didn't you?" My voice suddenly cracks and a burst of sob which I qas holding back comes out. He was the last person I wanted to know about the embarrassing stuff I did when I was a child or how silly and stulid I was... those people had literally remarked every single thing I didn't want him to know about me and he was right there when they did, hearing everything.  Suddenly  he hugged me tight,  his hands around my waist.  " Shhh. Hey, it's okay! " he whispers in my ear. " No it's not. " I say while bringing up my hands from under his arms,  print my head on his shoulder.  I was so sad to thing about what I was doing! I meeded the hug so badly I didn't even care if I was hugging my crush. " Almost everyone over there hears about my embarrassing childhood crush and all. The thing is that I'm over that thing and Carter is like a brother to me and I don't want everyone to know about it or at meast ralk about it " I say hugging him tighter crying in his shirt. I don't know what had gotten into me but as it seemed all the pain I've been holding these days had come out in a nano-second. "Specially mot infront of you" the last part was our of my mouth before I could stop it. I cursed myself because of it. He brought one of his hands up and started stroking my hair. "Hey its not like the world has come to an end. if it makes you feel better I van tell you some of my embarrassing childhood stories. Kike one time I had this huge crush on my first garde teacher." He says backing a little so he can look at me his hands still around my waist. I smile a little at his pour attempt to make me laugh. " It's not like that." I say looking away from his brown stunning eyes. " hey look at me. Is it really because I've heard them?" he says staring into my eyes again. " it's just... that... it's. .." this is it tell him Arrow. Tell him how you feel i tild myself but I couldn't bring myself to speak these words. I stutter while looking into his eyes suddenly he crashes his lips to mine. I was so surprised  I didn't do anything at first but then i start kissing back. his kiss was passionate. his lips felt warm  against mine . oh how soft his lips were. only God knew for how long I've been fanatsing and dreaming about him kissing me But I always knew it would never happen. I just knew it . It was like all my senses just woke up as if they were half awake before, though I couldn't feel anything only his lips on mine and his arms around me.  We kissed for God knows how long until we had to come up for air. I looked him in the eyes shilr breathing heavily "Edred..." I started to day but he cut me off by pulling his thumb on my bottom lip. "Shhh..." but I couldn't "Edred... what? why?" I was so shocked I could only use one word sentences.  " Arrow please I wanted to do that for so long and when I saw you vulnerable standing here beautifuler than ever, I just couldn't stop myself. I'm sorry... you can forget about that... you can imagine it never happened" he said trying to get away from me. " But I don't want to forget about it Edred." I mumbled. "what?" he froze in his place confusion filling his eyes. " I said I don't want to forget about it. " I reapeted my sentence. " That i heard. I mean, why?" he asks taking a step towards me. " Why should I forget about something I wanted to happen so badly I can't even say." I say closing the space between us hugging him again this time my hands around his neck. "But... but I thought you liked carter!" he said. " Just like you said I HAD but it was over a long time ago" I stated breathing in his scent, sweat and cologne. " I can't believe it... do you know how lomg I've been dreading to do that? "
- Then why didn't you?
- I couldn't there was no way you liked me back. I mean I'm not pretty or anything.
I mean really he'd  never done anything which I could guess he liked me. nothing.at.all
- Well... first of all font talk about your self like that. your more than pretty the first time I saw you after that long time, I was ... surprised by yiu.... dazzled. the little Arrow had frown into a beautiful woman with even a prettier character.  But I didn't  have the courage to ask you iut cause I always thought you miked Carter.
- I told you.... I was a child and he was one of the only boys around me.
I said. he didn't answer, just kept hugging me  "Edred?" after a few seconds I ask. "Yes Arrow? " "Can you di that again? I mean cam you kiss me again just to make sure it was real? I just want to make sure that I wasn't dreaming and that I won't wake uo in the morning with non of these actually happening? " I asked looking at him. he doesn't answer just crashes his lips on mine again. this time with more passion than the last one, cause he was sure now. he kissed me as if there was no tomorrow. ... a kiss that I could never forget. " Baby girl. you are like an Arrow shot through my heart, you can't leave my heart, cause if you do it would be shattered....

a.n hey guys hope you like it. don't forget to like and comment.... pleade ignore the grammer.... my grammer is really bad. ... thanks to @tsianhm to make me put this story here....