The Reunion

I looked in confusion as i stood in front of two big, light brown doors. Both had writing on them. The writing was really neat, in a fantasy type font: one read "Heaven" and the other read "Home". Whats happening?, why am i here? "hello?" i called out, turning away from the doors and taking in my surroundings, there wasnt much to take in if im honest the room was plain white with three doors.

"Frankie dear, how are you?" said a soft voice behind me. I turned around to look for the person behind the voice and was met with the soft loving stare of my Nan, who was stood by the door that read "Heaven"

"What's going on?" i asked, running over to her and pulling her into a hug.

"You have been given a second chance, a choice infact. do you want to go back home or do you want to come with me forever?" she asked, i missed her, her voice was just so comforting, her look was inviting, careing and easily lovable, but she chould throw a punch, i found that out a few weeks before she passed away of a heart attack, we were shopping and she got mugged, well, they attemted to mug her but she knocked them out.

"why would i want to go back? no one will miss me anyway!, i brought myself here, i obviously dont want to go back there" i said slightly raising my voice, i got fustrated very quickly. My Nan looked over at me before she took my hand and led me over to the third door, shushing me to calm me down.

She opened the door and we were there, in the hospital room. i watched as a nurse walked over to my bed "its time to switch off her life support now, she hasent improved, its been two months, she's not going to wake up" she said gently to my mum who sat looking just as pale as i did, the nurse put her hand on my mums shoulder and its like she pushed a button to turn her on, my mothers eyes grew wide and she shot up out of her seat shouting and beggin on her knees to the nurse to keep my life support on for another 10 minutes.

I looked around the room, all of my family was there along with the few close friends i have, well had? tears were now pricking at my eyes, as i stared at my life-less body, soon enough the tears started flooding, im suprised i still had any left in me, all a sudden the whole world fell silent as memories flooded back and i was in a trance, the images dancing in my face, i was now replaying the day i attempted to take my life.

It started all at once, i was in my room, my mum just next door, i was crying, knowing what i was about to do, leaving my family and friends forever without any real, well deserved goodbye, with a decent explanation, instead a letter, telling them why, the stroy of my life, it was the hardest thing I've ever done tears were constantly running, making it difficult to write through the blur of tears building up in my eyes, but this was my only escape, i had to do it, so i did.
i watched as i finished writing the letter, i saw myself crying, it was like i could interact with the memory, I was a ghost, reliving the past, i took the letter, i read the words, and yet again, the hell of my life, played right infront of me.

" Hey Mum, I'm sorry you had to see this.

The reason for me doing this, is because i have no other escape from it, i never told you any of this before now, i didn't want to worry you, and quite frankly i didnt think it would have gotten this worse or last this long, i was getting beat up regulary mum, it was never as bad until recently, today is the day, the day set in stone the day i would finally get sweet release, but for the full story, here gose: