The Final Countdown

Part 1

PLEASE DON'T STEAL OR COPY MY IDEAS

"-50 days to go

Life sucks,people suck,this world sucks.Narrow minded people judging everything I do,from the way I dress to the scars on my wrists.I don't even know why I don't end this now.I guess the reason I give myself almost two more months of torture is because I want to achieve most of my goals in these 50 days.Today was hard.Frustrating,stressful,irritating and depressing as all the others.I had to take these stupid pills again and see this stupid doctor who I don't know why we're actually paying him because to be honest he sucks as a psychologist.He doesn't help at all,all he does is sitting on a chair in front of me and listening to me talking bullshit.No diagnosis or such things,only me talking and he humming a few words like: go on and oh and okay.My life is so miserable.Wake up,pills,school,pills,studying,internet and food every now and then.I gave up on myself very easily and too,too early.I should have insisted,I should have tried more.It's too much I should've done but I didn't and here we are now.I tried to avoid him all day today but it didn't really work so I had to say a simple 'hello' every now and then."

HAZEL'S POV

I was walking in a fast pace through the school corridors not wanting to talk to anyone whenI heard a shy "Hi" behind me.I stopped and turned around.It was him,my own devil,Michael himself,after everything that has happened he was still right here saying hi.I probably look like an idiot now,fuck.
"H-hi" I muttered looking anywhere possible to just avoid his gaze

"Listen,Hazel,I-"

"I have to go Michael" no I couldn't hear him apologizing,not again.I wouldn't take it.I went to class hoping I wouldn't see Michael again but I was wrong.

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I was walking to the front door when I tripped and fell on someone.I thought it couldn't get any worse but I was wrong.He was holding me in his arms finally after all this time.I just stayed there,the only place that seemed safe to me.I think he understood,because he wrapped his arms around me engulfing me in a tight hug,something that had to happen ages.A few seconds later I realized what was actually happening,and I decided to leave,the only way I solve most of my problems.Simply walking away,not saying anything.