Without You

Final

Without You

I still remember your scent. Your scent stayed at your favorite shirt. Now, I was holding your shirt that has been last worn by you. This fabric still smells like you, a sweet fragrance of strawberries and was smelled by your sweat. It made me recall our memories that were shared together. But, I felt pain inside whenever I missed your smiles and laughs.

Your voice always lingers around my head. The feeling when you touch me makes me wanna hug you over and over again. The times I felt alone, the times I felt coldness, the times I felt pain, you were there. Hugging me with your warm embrace, I always liked that and you know it. Locking me inside of your arms while I sniff your sweet scent. But today, I already felt coldness and loneliness, yet, you're not here.

It may sound impossible but can I see you again? I always sit and pray every day that I will see your bubbly face. Your golden skin will brush on my own pale skin. Even in my dreams only, I miss you already.

Lazily, whispering your name, calling you to come here. This awkwardness is killing me. Please, can you save me by kissing your soft lips and hearing your small whispers? I may hate your little affections before but I missing it a lot. When will I see you again?

I really hate how my tears betray me. I cried always because I was thinking of you. Your sweet talks, your scent, your touch, your kiss, your smiles.. your everything. When I will hug you again?

Many tears are wasted. I thought love cannot hurt you. I thought love will always be happy. The negative opinions scattering on the crowd about love, I thought they were wrong. But I realized that they were right all along. How can I be stupid?

The marks I did on your skin tell the whole world that I claimed you. You were mine and no one can steal you from me. But I was wrong, the way you looked at me in that day, wearing your sympathetic eyes made my heart shatter.

Now I know why you are not saying 'good' in 'byes' because it there's no good in goodbyes when it was the last you will bond together... I should protect you in that day..

When you sulked on the day we had a big fight, I was the first person who said sorry. And gladly, you smiled and you told me you accepted my apology. Honestly, I was happy on that day. I thought you're not gonna talk to me forever. That frightens me a lot because I'm scared I might lose you. But I already did.

I always close my eyes, hoping, praying that when I open your eyes, you are in front of me now. But unfortunately, you're not here. I told you that I don't want to be alone. Yet, you left me alone. Why? Why did you left me?

Is it I'm not that sweet? Am I not that good? Is my cooking bad? Please tell me! Don't lie! Don't worry, I'll be good at something you don't want. I'll always buy you banana milk. Or I'll massage you every time you are tired. I'll tell you how I love you just please! Go back! Go back to me! Come back to my loving arms... Please...