I'm Princeton from Mindless Behavior.
I'm in love with Roc Royal. He's oblivious to it though.
That's why I had to act like I hated him even if I didn't.
Don't blame me if he gets hurt because you don't know how it's like to live, eat, sing, dance and sleep in the same house with the one person that you love the most.
You don't know how much it hurts to see him kiss another girl. To see him flirt with any other person apart from me.
Of course, he doesn't know that I'm gay and in love with him. I don't want anyone to know I'm gay, not even the fans but maybe I'll tell them soon. But that's a big maybe, a humongous one, so don't hold your breath.
The only people that know I'm gay are, Keisha, Walter, Ray Ray, Kenneth and my parents of course. They were the first to know because, you know, they're my parents. And they were surprisingly okay with it. Which I didn't expect but I won't complain.
Ray Ray knows that I love Roc and he's fine with it.
When I told Ray Ray I was gay I thought he was going to punch me and call me all those offensive names. I can remember that day as clear as day...
"Ray Ray, I can I talk to you?" I stood beside the sofa twiddling my fingers nervously. He looked up from his sketch pad and arched his brow. then motioned me to talk. I didn't want the others to know what I was going to tell him incase it got bad. "Privately?"
He closed his sketch pad and placed it on the coffee table then followed me upstairs to my room. I shut the door firmly after we got in and sat down on my bed, twiddling my thumbs.
"Okay, what did you want to talk to me about?" He asked, getting straight to the point.
"Uh...um...I-I-I'm..." I can't do it. This was a bad idea. I can't tell anyone. What if he hates me. But I need to tell someone this secret that's eating me up from the inside. That's probably why I chose to tell Ray. He's laid back and he doesn't judge. I couldn't tell Prod because I don't know how he'll react and I couldn't tell Roc either considering he's the reason I found out I'm gay and in love with him, so Ray Ray was all I had.
"Prince, what's wrong?" He asked gently and put his hands on top of mine to stop them from moving. I sighed.
"Nothing's wrong." I said, removing my hands from under his.
"Then Tell me why you're nervous." I looked up at him and decided that I should tell him. It's now or never Princeton, so you've got to grow a set and tell your bestfriend, even if there's a slight possibility that he'll hate you. I took a breath in and let it out. Here goes nothing.
"I'm gay." He jumped off the bed as if it'd burned him and looked at me wide eyed. My heart sunk at his actions, he hates me now. Fuck you brain for telling me it's a good idea.
My eyes watered and no matter how hard I tried to suppress them they refused. A tear escaped my eyes and this seemed to snap him out of his daze.
"Why are you crying?" He knelt down infront of me so that he could see my face.
"B-b-because y-you h-hate me." I managed to stammer out through my sobs. He looked at me like I was crazy.
"Why would I hate you?" Now it was my turn to look at him like he was crazy. Is he fucking kidding me? What kind of question is that? I even stopped crying.
"Uh, b-because I-I'm gay?" I meant for it to come out as a statement but it instead came out as a question.
"I don't hate you. I don't care if you're gay or bi or straight, Prince, you're still my bestfriend and brother from another mother." I just about collapsed in relief and the tears flowed anew. Ray Ray pulled me to him and wrapped his slim arms around me. I clutched his shirt tightly and burried my head in his chest and sobbed. "Shh, shh, it's okay, let it all out, Princey, let all out." He whispered in my hair, tightening his hold on me. I cried harder and he just let me cry in his chest.
After I was all cried out, I was exhausted and I fell asleep still in Ray Ray's arms.
I'll never forget that day. He was there for me when I needed a friend. He just accepted me the way I was and didn't judge me. I'm glad he's my friend because that's what friends are for, they shouldn't judge you for being who you are.
That day I knew that Ray Ray was a true friend and that he'd always have my back no matter what.
