My diary says it all

Part one

Diary I just don't know how to handle this. It seems like I'm on a whole different planet. We were together for like three ears and then he just decides that he's tired of it. My reaction was, tired of what? I gave him everything he wanted. Josh was like a god in my eyes and I just don't know how he can just be so okay about everything like nothing happened. My mother always warned me about this stuff, don't fall all the way in love. Blah, blah, blah. I can't control my heart or my brain, they control me. I've always wanted a love like Josh's and when i got that i wasn't gonna let it slip away.. My mom and dad didn't approve of josh at all. They said that i was to good for him, and i deserve better. Well I didn't want better I wanted Josh. He is what filled my head and every time i thought about him i became overwhelmed with happiness. I wasn't going to let my parents ruin this like they ruined so many great friendships. My best friend says that when josh and i got together something inside me changed. She said everything was about him. For a long time amber complained that i was never going to be the same as I was before josh asked me out. I told her that its not like she didn't ever act like that. She's not perfect either. I remember ambers first boyfriend, Drake. He was the new kid and when she saw him she knew she had to get him. Just thinking about that asshole makes me want to scream. Amber, and I were only 11. Drake moved here when we were just finishing up 5th grade. She said that when she first layed eyes on him she knew he was the one. Now every time she says i seemed obsessed I'm going to bring up Drake. Anyways back to josh. OK so I am sixteen now and I stated dating josh when I as thirteen. No josh was not my first boyfriend but he was my first true love. Every time I think about that first date I just remember being the happiest girl in the 8th grade. I was actually at cheer pratice when Josh came up and asked to talk to me. At first I was all nervous because it was cheer practice i was only wearing a sports bra and my cheer spandex. Of course I was excited I mean who wouldn't be he is the star of the football team. "I really need to talk you Emilly." "Ok, then talk!" "Well I was just wondering if you would go to the dance with me after the game tomorrow?" "Yea, of course that sounds like fun!" I never would of guessed that our first date would lead into a long term relationship. I also didn't think or know that i was going to end up loving Joshua plameth. But I did and i just don't know if i will ever be able to face people again. I think I'm going to call amber and have her come over.

Ok so this is my frst story that I am actually putting somewhere else rather then my room. I am so sorry if you don't like this style of book, but there will be others and This is only part one of this so you will see more. I really would appreciate comments good or bad or even helpful. Enjoy :)