Don't Fall In Love With Me

Hurt

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Tater and her father made it to the hospital. They are sitting in the waiting room waiting on results. Tater hopes her mom and sister make it because she said hurtful things to them and she didn't really mean them. Well, she did mean the things she said about lexie her little sister, only because tater was jealous. Her parents made her feel like she didn't matter anymore. At times she tried to be understanding that a newborn is serious and has to be attended to. But it was hard for her to hold her tongue any longer. She'd wondered what happened and wondered if it had anything to do with her fathers dealings.

"Family of Kathy and Alexis Johnson?" Said a short white lady who was obviously a doctor. Tater and her dad stood, "yes" Chris said. "Follow me" said the doctor. They walked onto the elevator and went up to floor 3. Chris had them moved onto a VIP floor for like celebrities or people like him. They stood outside of a door. "Now, Kathy is fine. But.. Lexie did not make it. I'm sorry for your loss but we did all that we could. The impact on her small body could not bear the pain. I'm so sorry. In this room is Kathy and Lexie. Lexie is still on the monitors just in case there is a false alarm they will stay on until tomorrow at 6 pm. Kathy would like to stay over night with Lexie in case she's just in a coma. Any questions before we go in? " the doctor said. " what happened?" Chris asked teary eyed. "There was a wreck. Kathy was in the wrong. The other family is all okay and are perfectly fine. Kathy will tell you what happened and why the wreck was caused. " said the doctor. She opened the door. Tater and Chris were now weeping silently. Tater had never actually had any moments with Lexie and now was her time to make it right. She was her little sister. The annoying little girl that she had to set an example for. Her only blood sibling. The one who would always have her back. The one who would cherish all of their memories. The only one who could make her an aunt. And she had never held her or talked to her even though she wouldn't talk back. And now she was ... Gone. Tater hoped that before 6 o clock she woke up or something because if not, tater would lose it. She hasn't talked to gabe nor Dee , jela, and Chy since the fair. But none of them mattered right now. Her focus was her family.

T: hey momma. im sorry-

K: *hugs tater tightly* I'm sorry baby.

Kathy had been sitting thinking about how her and taters relationship and the things she said about Lexie. She came to the conclusion that she'd been so worried about Lexie that she neglected tater.

T: momma it's okay I forgive you. I was just jealous and felt like you guys didn't care about me.

K: aweee baby you know Lexie is only 11 months I have to provide for her more than you since she's a baby. I figured you would understand that and be a little more independent and responsible, but I guess you do need my attention too.

T: it's okay mom. I truly apologize for the things I said.

K: I forgive you.

Chris was holding an unconscious Lexie's hand. He let them have their moment. Tater walked over to Lexie and layed in the hospital bed with her. Moments like this she wished she'd had before because this may be the last time. Chris and Kathy shared a deep long hug and a passionate kiss.

C: I'm sorry this happened to y'all.

Chris said while crying like a little ass boy. He was grown asf but for his family, he wasn't scared to admit that he was soft as hell.

C: baby what happened?

K: I told tater that it was time to go. We'd only been there for an hour. I called and said lets go Lexie's getting a little too cold. She said no I'm not leaving for that little brat. I left and the things she said really hurt and I cried. My vision got blurry and I couldn't see. I turned left into the right lane and crashed.

C: tater come here baby.

T: yea?

C: why did you disrespect your mother?

T: if your gonna just bash me out save it. I already feel like I'm not loved and Lexie may be gone and I don't wanna feel any worse.

C: no I'm not. I'm talking to you like a parent should little girl now why did you!!

T: UGH! YALL ALL HATE ME AND I KNOW IT! I CANT DO THIS ANYMORE!!

With that being said tater left. She called gabe and told him to pick her up.

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The ride to gabe house was silent. Gabe knew everything that happened and knew tater was stressed so he decided not to push the situation. They got there and went straight through his room. Tater put on one of his big shirts and basketball shorts that she left over there.

G: babe talk to me please

T: I feel like they don't love me anymore. I can't keep putting a smile on my face everyday when I really wanna frown.

G: baby trust me they love you. maybe it's just a rough patch right now. try talking to God and go to church. I can't mentally make you better, only he.

T: go to church with me and the girls?

G: you know I can't tay I'm sorry. The things I'm doing is not what God would like. I can do better. I don't want to walk into church and feel guilt. I can only pray for you sweetie I'm sorry.

T: I understand babe it's okay. I just hope my family gets put together and Lexie comes out okay. I should go back later and talk to them.

G: yes baby that's good. You can't continue running away from your problems. Stay and solve them. It'll leave you one less thing to stress about.

With that gabe and tater shared a long deep kiss.

T: you always know what to say. i love you.

Gabe was shocked. She's never actually said it.

G: I love you too. You hungry?

T: nigga you know it.

G: pizza or Chinese?

T: pizza.

1 hour later tater and gabe fell asleep watching movies and eating pizza.
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I want to take these nails off sooo bad. They are so long and it's really affecting how quickly I update. I type on my phone so it's very hard. I have an iPhone 6 so it's hard to hold and it's just all too much. I wish I could get a mini laptop for Christmas... 🤔you guys agree?

-Daishaa ❣