Condemned Hell

Chapter 01

Dear Diary,
Everyday was like a living hell for me in my old school. That's probably why I've been depressed for the past 2 years. Wow, you say. You're diving right into it. Of a matter a fact, I am. See I don't care what you think, well at least I act like it. I care a lot what people think of me actually. I care what people think of me who I don't even know, and never will. I won't explain too much, all that I'll tell you for now is what you need to know at the moment which my mom is a single parent and has two jobs. She can't  find the right guy. He always ends up being a drug addict, acholic, criminal, cheater. It's not like she means to, she falls in some kinds of trap because she's so gullible and is afraid to be alone ever since Dad left us. That was over what, 12 years ago? Mom thinks that this "diary" will busy me enough so it will force me to be happy so I won't be distracted by the other awful things happening in my life. Mom's fighting again. Guess with who? Her new boyfriend, Derrick. I don't know what his story is but I'll find out. This is actually pretty entertaining, but probably not to anyone else. I have to go.
Write later,
Ivory

"Hey Livi, shhhh," I cooed to my little sister Olivia. She was still 8 months old from my mom and her ex-boyfriend Justin. He robbed a bank 3 months back and had no choice but to leave us. Derrick and mom just kept screaming louder, and before I know it I heard burning rubber screeching out of our driveway. Who knows what happened? In fact, I don't really care about it anymore. Didn't really care for my mom that much anymore either. She changed. Began becoming desperate.
She can't make enough money for the 4 of all of us, so she is a maid at the Buffalo Inn by day and a cashier by night at our local grocery store.
After Livi stopped crying, I walked down the hallway from Mom's room and passed my brother Toby's room to smell marijuana. Typical, I thought in my head. Yup, my older brothers a drug addict, ever since he was 13 actually. Didn't hang out with the right people I guess.
"Hey Ive, sis," Toby cooed at me. "Wanna smoke some?" He asked grabbing another joint out of his bag. Did he really think I was going to smoke with him? Or smoke whatsoever? Sorry, but I didn't want to end up like my mom, she smokes too.
I turned right into the bathroom. I like late night showers, it was currently 9 at night, pretty late for me saying it was a school night. I wanted to hopefully make a good impression on my first day in my new school at least. It was the middle of December, almost Christmas so I guess I would be kind of the awkward new girl anyways.
Who comes to a new school in the middle of December? I asked my mom on our flight over here. Well, turns out, apparently me. Time to be the new weird girl again.
I turned the shower head after I grabbed a clean towel that just came out of the dryer; my favorite. Once the water got warm I stepped in and admired the heat. How perfectly the warm water hit my smooth skin. I did all my stuff in the shower taking about an hour and after brushed out my chocolate brown hair and blow dried it making it straight.
The only thing I feel confident about myself is that I do have fairly long, thick hair. A naturally pretty color as well, it wasn't hard to manage like some girls' hair which was a benefit for me because I don't exactly have loads of money that I got from working a part-time shift working at Dairy Queen either to pay for nice hair products and styling tools. I was too busy worrying about how I was going to afford myself food, baby food, and diapers for my little sister and I since my mom stopped caring and once in 2 months buys us food when she gets the money.
I went right to sleep because of course me procrastinating taking a shower, plus the time I took in there took a while it was getting pretty late. Hopefully tomorrow will be a decent day.