Forever and Always (lesbian story)

Chapter 2: She didn't even look back

I feel water drops on my head as I wake up, but I'm not in my bedroom. I'm on the highway. I look around and see a mangled up car with blood all over the road. I see flashing lights coming down the road but I hear nothing. I see my mother laying lifeless out of a smashed window and my fathers body through the windshield. I try to run to them and help but I can't move. I try and scream for help but no one sees or hears me. I hear the EMT say a prayer as he carries my father and mother away on the gurney.
I wake up to a cold sweat and I can't breathe. My pillow is soaking wet. I gasp as I get up and run some cold water into my face. I lay back down and  then I realize that Zoe's not there.
'Shit' I say under my breath as I climb out of bed and take my sweaty clothes and put them in my basket.

'"What the fuck happene" and then it hits me. Oh my shit, Zoe. Zoe and I we. No this can't be. She doesn't go that way.

I run down stairs and yell out her name " ZOE. ZOE WHERE ARE YOU" I start to get worried as I check the bathroom then the living  room.

Then the smell of bacon and bagels hits my noise and I dash into the kitchen. Then I see her. The most beautiful girl in the world. With her beautiful blonde hair in a bun and her laced beautiful bra that hugs her body perfectly. It takes my breath completely away.

I try to say something, anything to get her attention but the way the morning sun shines on her skin, the way she walks around with a shy motion even though she doesn't know I'm here.

I have no words to describe the way she makes me feel. She makes me feel scared, she makes me feel shaky, like I can't function because she's taken all of the air away from my lungs.

I sorta start to choke because of the lack of breath and she turns around looking like she just saw a ghost.

As I get my lungs working again I manage to get out "Good morning" but it more sounded like
" G-G-G-ood M-m-m-orning."

She starts giggling "Are you okay over there? As she walks over to me and feels my head. "You had another nightmare didn't you" she says as she hugs me "You need some orange juice!"

I laugh off my stutter and embarrassment and clear my throat as I take a sip

"How was your sleep Zoe?" I say hesitantly as I can hear my heart beat hammering against my chest

"Good actually! I don't remember shit besides when you broke George's nose" she laughs and walks to get the bagels.

My heart stops, cracks, and shatters within milliseconds. 'She doesn't remember' I say to myself. 'Why doesn't she remember!'

I sigh as I sit down and start to eat the bacon she cooked. She knows exactly how I like it.

"What's wrong?" She says as she walks to the chair in front of me. "Is it not good?"

I laugh at her concerns compared to mine

"Zoe this is  wonderful" I explain as I smile and shove more into my mouth

"But w-we gotta talk about something, something that happened last night after I brought you here." 

I manage to get out after 39 minutes of me trying to figure out what I'm gonna say to her.

"But I can't tell you here, it has to be upstairs."

I get up and start to lead her up the stairs, past the dog gate, and to the left.

I can feel my heart starting to pitter patter again, faster and faster, I take a deep breath as I sit on my bed with her plopping down beside me"

"Zoe, I don't know how to say this, but last night when we got into the jeep we kissed."

She looks at me and starts to get up and try and leave.

"No, Zoe wait please" I grab her hand and practically drag her back to the bed.

I continue my recollection of last night's events.

"Zoe, we made love last night, in this bed. You told me, looked me straight in the eye and said 'Kay, I need you to love me, hold me and kiss me. I need you.' And so there it is Zoe, I told you and please don't get mad and leave because I need you too."

I pause and take a deep breath.

"I'm so madly in love with you Zoe. No words could ever compare to how I feel about you. Your eyes. They're like the dark blue sky before a storm, and I can't help but feel captured by them."

She shys away and shakes her head.

"Kayleigh."

I start to get hurt and I sorta shout but choke at the same time

"No, let me finish Zoe. The way your body looks under the moon light, the way your breath feels against my aching body, the way our body came together last night can never be erased from my mind. But you, you don't remember and all I'm asking of you is one thing."

The tears streaming down my face are scorching hot and I start sobbing more and more

"A-all I ask is" I start sniffling even more "is for me to take you out, on a date. Let me give you something to remember. Let me show you that I can care for you, that I can make you feel loved, I can try my hardest to make you the happiest girl in the world."

She shakes her hand and sighs.

I hide my face with my hands and sit there as I hear her walk out and slam my door. Before she drives away I run to the windrow, breathless, and watch her never look back, not even once.