Chapter One: When Everything Crashes Down.
Nothing and no one could get in my way. Not after everything I have been through, not after all the pain, the hurt, the sadness, the happiness. Not after all of it. I ran and ran knowing that if I didn’t I would never have what I needed. I ran until my feet had blistered and the blisters had broken. This was what I was going through at this exact moment in time. All I could think of was the feeling of the wind hitting my skin, the tears wetting my cheeks and the curiousness of death. It all hit me at once and that’s when I finally became too weak, too soul drained. I was slipping, I know I was.
I jumped up out of bed that morning dreading that I had to face another day. Why did it always have to be me? I slowly opened my door and tip toed to the kitchen. I remember hoping that I would be quite enough to not wake anyone in the house. I opened the fridge and I grabbed my bottle of water. As I turned around, I saw him. He was the worst thing I had to have ever encountered. My father. I looked at him and as I was swallowing in nervousness I began to stutter.
“I’m sorry I’m sorry” was all I could say. “I will go back to my room now. I didn’t mean to wake you.” I saw it in his eyes, and I knew well enough what was going to happen next. I quivered in fear as he approached. And with the back of his hand he slapped me. I saw that coming and didn’t expect anything more from him. I just wanted it to all end. But that was the day when I gave up on life. The day that my father had sexually abused me.
I could handle physical abuse, but sexual abuse was the one thing that pushed me over the edge. I remember screaming out in fear as he penetrated me. As he moaned and went deeper, I cried and screamed louder. My mother taped it all from afar laughing as if all I was to her was entertainment. He went faster and harder and when he climaxed he didn’t dare pull out and let his cum enter me. I cried and cried. For days I didn’t sleep. I didn’t want to eat. As a matter of fact I didn’t want to do anything.
~End of Chapter
