Destiny's Ashes

Epilogue

Sh*t why I am doing this?? I burn her all pictures.. and all things that reminds me of her.. but is it really help me?? Does that our destiny will also burn? I just wanted to forget this pain for now..damn..

If only our destiny can also be burn, but it is absolutely impossible.

The fate of others is the only we can do manipulate.

I tried to made rituals many times just to escape this fate but nothing had happen.

Now I am deeply in love with her. Tsk.

crap! This tears again.. I hate it.. I hate..

"parang awa niyo na..kunin niyo na ako"

I'd heard that in 5 different people in this hospital.

I have been in this place when I am bored or angry.

And those 5 persons have always asking for death but I didn't give their wish yet, because I want to prolong their suffering. And I will be happy. They are in rush for their wish huh..

tsk..

But because I am depressed now, so I will grant their wish..

I whisper to their ears, even if I am not close to them they can hear me.

"Go kill yourself"

and in few minutes after..I saw their relatives crying..

of course they didn't see me because I am good in hiding and acting..

Haist..

why?

why?

I am still not happy...

and powerless..

"honey..Nina drop this" Mom give me a small envelope..Of course I didn't get it. tsk.

Why envelope ?

Is there a letter on it? No, I don't want to read it..

I don't wanna. tsk..

I just ignore mom and I went to my room.

I heard my door open.

"son..I will put this here" it's mom and then she left. tsk.

Ok fine..

I open the envelope and I saw a letter with a picture attach on it.

A picture of me when I am a twelve years old. Maybe someone captured this without my permission because I didn't look at the camera. tsk. stalker.

I read the letter..

Dear Kaixier,

I treasure that picture so much. It reminds me on how I like you so much since when I first saw you..sorry for stealing a picture of you. I can't help it, you're too cute..hehehe

You know what..I felt insecure when you and Shannia become close. funny right? she's my best friend but I envy her. And I was hurt when I knew she has a crush on you. I told to myself maybe you have also crush on her..that's not impossible because she's pretty and kind.. and easy to be loved. And I thought she was that girl you said to me in valentine's day before, that you will offering a song..So I thought maybe I should give up. After all you will be in good hands. But then I was surprised when I knew you're not in love with her. I admit it that I am a little bit happy for that..hehe

That time I didn't know yet that you're my soul mate.. When I'd already heard that you are the one who destined to me from my parents. Yes, I felt glad because there will be a chance for me to be with you but I felt also worried because I don't think you will accept me and I felt scared when I heard about your family. But in spite of that I accept you with all my heart.