As I stand here
From the cliff, looking down
I wonder how hard my body would hit
Oh how pleasant would be the sound
To hear my bones splinter and shatter
To see the blood pool around
Yes, that's what I wish would happen
When my body hits the ground
But every time I make that jump
I'm able to walk away
Yes, with pain so excruciating
Alas, it never stays
My bones fix themselves up
My skin stitches together
Have I ever left to the other side?
No, I've lived forever
My thoughts were not always like this
I used to love my life
But I have made many mistakes
And it is now full of strife
The centuries have passed
And I've lived through them all
Watching my loved ones leave me
Watching my family fall
As a child, eternal life
Who would pass that up?
But older now, I understand
How badly I messed up
To live my life and serve my time
To have the cycle end
That is what should have happened
That's as it should have been
But Fate decided otherwise
And blessed me with a curse
My brothers, my wife, my child...
I don't know which loss was worse
I had accepted my fate
Of always lingering here
But burying my son
That was more than I could bear
Alone I wander
Never knowing why
It was me chosen to live this way
Why it was I who couldn't die
The loneliness consumes me
The darkness doesn't pass
Oh how I wish to be destroyed
Like a fallen piece of glass
Are you enjoying this?
Do you find satisfaction from my pain?
Have you cursed others as you have cursed me?
What are you trying to gain?
What have I done to earn this torture?
What crime did I commit?
What could I have possibly done?
What action caused your rage to be lit?
Whatever it was, I promise you
With every fiber of my being
I repent
I wish to pass on, I beg you
It is too much time I've spent
Have you forgotten?
Have you abandoned me?
Have you left your little test
Unable to rot among the rest?
When shall I at last be set free?
What shall finally sate thee?
When my mind is gone
Whilst thou then show pity?
What urged you to create me?
Why am I not allowed to die?
Are you listening?
Do you silently berate me?
As I sit here among my tears
I've no one to save me
Oh Death, why must you escape me?
I beg you, please take me.
God...
Oh God...
Why do you hate me?
