The girl who can't leave

"We can't do this right now!!"

"And why can't we?"

He says in that deep voice as he kissed my neck. Sending shivers down my spine.

"Cause your wife is in the other room and I'm a nobody to you."

He stops kissing my neck and looks deep into my eyes. Pinning me to that spot as he always does.

"Never utter those words out of your mouth again! You mean everything to me!"

He says with such fury and conviction. I do nothing but stare at him. The man I love. We hear footsteps coming our way. He moves away from me. I already miss the heat from his body. I look up in time to see Seohyun walk in.

"Is everything ok Jessica?"

"Yes everything is fine ma'am. I was just telling Seunghyun that the renovations to the master bedroom will be done in one month. Then you and Seunghyun can move back in."

"Oh thank heavens Jessica. You are amazing! I know when your done I'm going to love it."

"Thank you ma'am." I say.

"Seunghyun is everything ok? You look flustered."

"No I'm fine. I'm just glad this will be over soon."

"Yes I can't wait to get back home."

She leaves us alone in the kitchen again.

"Seunghyun?"

"Yes Jessica?"

"Make this the last time we fool around. I don't need the complications in my life."

"I don't know if I can. I love.."

"Don't!!! Please don't say those words to me."

I say in a quiet voice.

" I know you don't mean it and that will only complicate things even more."

"I don't care! I want the complications with you! I love you! Not her I only married her cause I couldn't have you."

"So your blaming me for what happened in our past?! It was your fault!"

"I'm not saying that.... I just can't lose you again."

I walk closer to him while he leans on the counter. Put my hand on his cheek and he leans into it.

"I'm giving you one month to make things right or I'm gone. No more secrets meetings, no more phone calls, nothing."

" I will fix this."

"You better because I'm tired of waiting."

I leave him standing there. Making my way out the kitchen to say goodbye.

"Bye Seohyun. I'll give you an update in a few days ok." I say with a smile.

"You're not staying for dinner Jess?"

"No I really can't I have to get these papers in by the end of the day or we'll not be on schedule."

"Alright then see you."

"Bye."

I walk out the house and hop into my car as I look back Seunghyun is standing in the doorway watching. I make it all the way home before I breakdown in tears. I can't believe I let this happen again he wasn't suppose to be here. He's back and ruining everything I did to forget him. I hate him for it. I hear the faint buzz of my phone.

One new text message. I open it

. "I love you and you will be mine again... Seunghyun."

His text makes my heart ache in my chest. I walk into my bathroom and turn the tub on for a bath. Pouring bath fragrance in. The scent filling up the room calming me. As I sit in the tub I remember the day he told me to abort....

I just came from the doctors with the most happiest news of my life. I'm eight weeks pregnant with the love of my life baby. I make my way to the dorms where Seunghyun is staying. I stand in front of his door. I rein in my excitement and knock.

"Hello you."

"Hey."

I kiss him. I enter his single dorm room and sit on the bed. He sits next to me and leans in for another kiss. His lips looks so plump and soft that I couldn't do nothing but kiss him. My happiness was ready to spill over that I just blurted out.

"Seunghyun.. I'm pregnant!"

It seemed like everything stopped. His expression wasn't something I was hoping for. He just looked so blank.

"Seunghyun? Are you ok?"

That seemed to have snapped him out of a trance.

"Pregnant?" Your pregnant?"

"Yes I am." "Aren't you happy?"

A dark cloud seemed to settle over his face.

"Happy? That wouldn't be the right word to describe what I'm feeling."

My heart dropped to the bottom of my stomach.

"What? Why? I thought you would be happy."

"I'm shocked..how far along are you?"

"Well the doctor said I'm only eight weeks."

"Well it's still early."

"Still early for what Seughyun?"

"For you to get an abortion."

"An abortion?"

"Yes. I'm not ready for children. I'm too busy with school and your still in high school. That's not good."

The look on his face said everything his mind was already made up.

"But I want to keep our baby."

"Well we can't. I have my future to think about. I'm only 20 and your 17. A baby is not in my plans."

I protectively wrapped my arms across my mid section and stand up.

"Since you made up your mind without even considering my feelings and what I want to do I guess there isn't much to talk about."

He grabs me as I make my way to the front door.

"Jessica I wasn't aiming to hurt you but we aren't ready for kids. And I know it will not be pretty when this gets out between our families. So we need to get you an abortion. I will not leave you side as the procedure is done. We got the rest of our lives to think about kids. I love you and nothing will change that."

I start to cry as I realize he is right. I'm too young and I'm still in school. This will be a disgrace against my parents.

He hugs me as I breakdown for my unborn child. He leads me back to the bed and lays me down. He just continues to hold me as I cry. When I get my sobs under control. I realize he's whispering everything will be ok and he loves me.

I drift off to sleep in his arms. When I finally come back. I'm laying in his dorm room alone in the bed. Seunghyun walks back in and hands me some water.

"Where did you go?" I say.

"I went to make a phone call." He says as he sits beside me on the bed.

"Oh ok. So what now?

He takes hold of my hand.

"Well I talked to a very close friend of the family and made you an appointment."

"An appointment?"

"Yes I want this to be done as soon as possible. So you are scheduled to have the abortion a day after tomorrow."

"Ok if this is what you want.." I say with apprehension.

"It's not what I want but it has to be done. We aren't ready to have a baby right now. Not with me in college and you in high school."