No matter what

Chapter 7

What the hell is that beeping noise!! I know for a fact I did not set an alarm it's summer for god sakes!

Opening my eyes a little I realized I'm not in my room, the room was white and the stench it was way to clean. I was in the hospital! How the fuck did I end up here?

"Ali? Are you awake? Look at me please." The voice I heard was Matthews. Turning me head to look at him he smiled but he looked like hell.

"Matt what happened? Why am I hear?"

Matthew looked down at his hands

"You fainted." That was all it took to bring back my memory everything that happened last night at the party. Everything with Rorey, the boy who killed himself because of me. It was all my fault, none of this should have happened.

Matt saw the look on my face and pulled me into a hug "it's not your fault he was drunk, nobody could have stopped him not even you." Tears were falling down my face I couldn't control them. Matt pulled away from me and got up "I'm going to get the nurse." He walked out of the room and I just kept crying. I wasn't over Rorey yet and I wouldn't be for a long time if ever now.

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Being released from the hospital was a relief the people there asked to many questions about the night before.

Matt was watching me again as I got in my car which he was driving "I have something that will make you feel absolutely amazing." I couldn't figure out what it was so I nodded and we drove to his house.

Going in the house up to his room and lying on the bed all of my thoughts started rushing back the tears were bound to fall again any second.

"Ali close your eyes and hold out your palm." Matt said walking back into the room.

I did as he said and felt something plastic fall into my hand "open them Ali but don't judge till you try it." Slowly opening my eyes, I saw a small bag with white powder in it resting on my palm. I'd never tried coke before, this was scary but would it make me feel better?

Matt took a glass mirror off of his dresser laid it on the bed and motioned me onto the ground next to him taking the bag from me.

"It's simple all you have to do is take this straw put it up to your nose and breath in. I won't let anything bad happen to you." He instructed me and showed me.

Doing as he said I breathed in the white powder. My nose burnt and my eyes watered but as the powder started taking effect my body felt tingly, my head felt clear and I knew that all my worries meant nothing at this moment.

Matt looked very appealing to me like he suddenly became the hottest boy ever to walk this earth, I sat down the straw and leaned into him capturing his lips.

The kiss was intense, it felt amazing and I wanted at that moment to have more of him.

Reaching down I tried to unbuckle his belt but he stopped me pulling my hands away and lying me on the floor next to him.

The rest of the day and night we laid there only moving to do more coke. It was absolutely amazing.