Troubled

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"All of the disadvantage in this world stems from a person's lack of ability, Kaneki"
As soon as the words escaped her mouth, her kagune lashed at me with light speed and glazed the tip of my eye,missing my eyeball by inches.
I screamed at the top of my lungs and slammed the door shut.
I was scared out of my wits.My body was going numb from fear.
Oh MY GOD!!!OH MY GOD!!
Rize-San.
My head throbbed with such fury that my knees buckled. Scenes of my past flashed before my eyes and I doubled over, aggravated at my helplessness.
Asking Rize out on a date..
Going to big..
Walking her to her house..
The attack..the cranes..the surgery......
That's it!!i can't take it anymore I'm done I want it to END..
I was afraid.
But more then being afraid of Rize, I was afraid of that twisting feeling in my gut,
That......longing,hunger for her and that corpse.
I forced my own kagune out and waited for an attack.I stood and waited and watched.I didn't even knew what I was looking for,my heart beating at an increasing rate.
It all seemed so real, yet so absurd.
She called me something....Kaneki?
I gathered my courage and staggered forward to open the door.
Neatly-made bed bathed in sunlight. My books stacked on the desk and Rize was no more.