Grateful

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I laughed as Harry made a smart remark. I saw Louis looked at me from the side, list filling his crystal eyes. I flipped my attention back to the interviewer as she asked "If you were single, and you wanted to catch a cute guys attention...how would you dance?" I smiled, "well maybe like this." my face flushed as I stood up from the couch and looked at Louis I swayed my body and spun, dropping to my feet and sticking out my back as I ride back up, I put my hair in my face and bite my lip as I grab my hair and swayed, I saw him shift as he tried to hide his hard on smiling to myself I see the other boys laughed and I sat down next to Zayn. "So Louis, how would you describe Criss in bed?" I went wide eyed as he smiled and sucked in his bottom lip, smirking he opens his mouth and says "Well, she sometimes is stubborn...but if you get her going she's passionate, then dominant, then she gets dominated." I hid my face behind Zayn as I groaned in anger, I hated when interviewers would get into our personal business. Louis knowing that would always 'punish me' for teasing him. The interview finished and I sighed as I walked back to my dressing room, I was on my phone when I saw a pair of toms step in front of me. I stopped and looked up, Louis' arm was across my face in the door way. He was leaning against it with a leg crossed over the other as he bit his lip looking at me up and down, "So princess..you think teasing me is funny?" I smirked and nodded, "Yeah. It is. Problem Tommo?" He smirked and leaned into my neck, his breath hitting it he smiled against my skin and said "It is now." I felt him run his lips across my skin and my body shook under his touch. I shivered and felt him release me as he walked away towards the game room they had, I watched him leave as he swayed and his hair has a light bounce. I smiled and walked into my dressing room to change from a maroon shirt and black pants and black vans into black knee ripped skinny jeans, into my 'Tommo '94' shirt a fan made and gave to me. I played music as I prepared for the concert coming up in 5 hours, I heard a light knocking and said "Come in." I saw a curly smiley Harry as he closed the door behind him...which was unusual of him. He approached the couch I had and plopped down onto it, crossing his legs and watching me tie up my hair and grabbing my phone he stood up and grabbed my wrist, I turned to him and he crashed his lips onto mine. I wanted to pull away, but as soon as I tried he stuck his tongue in my mouth. I moaned at the taste of him, this was wrong and we both knew it.."Harry.." I panted "We can't do this, I love you as a brother. Not a lover." he looked at me with lustful jade eyes and sadly nodded, "I wanted you first.." I nodded knowing that what he said was true. When I joined 5 months after Zayn left Harry would always grab me and hug me and kiss me 'friendly' as he said. We once had sex but we don't talk about it, I loved him until I knew more about Louis and saw how well we got along then we fell in love. "Harry I'm sorry. You know what happened then, it's not right to do it again." He nodded and sadly smiled "It's ok.." he slammed the door and I heard him trudge down the hallway. I slammed my fist down and fell to the floor, not knowing what to do I rubbed the back of my neck. "Knock knock" I heard a Doncaster accent say, I stood up and looked at Louis as he smiled and hugged me. "Ooh, you feel tense." Next thing I knew his hands were grabbing the tops of my shoulders, I saw him work and look at his hands in the mirror, he lightly kisses my neck. He wraps his hands around my waist and smiles as he whispers things like "God I love you so much." and "You're so beautiful." "I can't believe you're mine." etc. I looked into the mirror and saw Harry's silhouette in the doorway. I looked away and Louis nuzzled himself into my neck, I moved and caused him to let go of me. He looked up at me through our reflections and asked me what was wrong, I inhaled and said with a hum "Hmm nothing. Just tired." I weakly smiled at him, he shook his head and said "Me too, but you can tell me if anythings wrong, I'm here." I nodded and saw my phone light up with a text..
Harry: I'm here.
I grabbed my phone and threw it behind me and scared Louis, "Jesus babe, don't try to kill me please" He laughed and I did too. He grabbed a shirt off the rack and took his off and with his back to me I watched as he chose his favorite one and put it on. I watched his back move and bit my lip, he really was my everything. He turned back to me and holding up 2 shirts looked up at Ms and asked me, "Which one?" he was holding up a black shirt with a moon on it and a white shirt with 'New York' all over it and designs in red, blue, black and white. I looked at both, then at him, then at the shirts. I held them up to him and studied the way they marched his crystal eyes and tan skin. I threw the white one at him and I giggled as it landed on his face. "Thanks you ass." I laughed and then sat down watching the news, "Rumor has it that Louis Tomlinson of One Direction has been cheating and is going to be a dad soon. Now if that's true or not obviously we don't know." My blood boiled as I turned and looked at him, he was wide eyed and looked at me. "Are you fucking kidding me?!" "Listen babe it's j-" "NO YOU LISTEN TO ME TOMLINSON, THIS IS BULLSHIT, THE FACT THIS IS EVEN A RUMOR OR TRUTH IS FUCKING DISGUSTING." Hot tears streamed down my face as my throat tore up my voice as I screamed at him, he stood back with hurt and sadness on his face. I breathe heavily as I fell to the floor and cried, I saw him get closer to me as I sobbed harder. "No, please don't get near me. I'm gonna hurt you." it tore me apart the fact I just screamed at my probably already stressed and sad boyfriend who I loved to the ends of the earth. He touched my back and I flinched. "I'm sorry." He said quietly as he stood up and walked out, turning to look at me one more time. He left and I started screaming at the top of my lungs, I threw things, I saw the mirror and looked at myself. My makeup was down my face, my face was red and my eyes were green and puffy. I threw my fist into the mirror causing it to shatter in different places, I cried harder with my hands rested on the table I dropped down and silently cried.

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