Learning to love again

Chapter 3

I start running threw the woods, dark no lights, i hear a snap of a twig and i force my self to run faster, i trip and there is a shadow over me, reaching down and pulling me up. It says in a deep voice " Death waits for no one." I start to feel light headed and everything is getting really dark, I look at the eyes of the killer and see brown eyes, same colour as Mr. Nall, how could that be, Mr. Nall as my killer. That makes no sence what so ever, then I zone back in to what he was doing, killing me slowley, a pain in my chest started the grow bigger and bigger, it feels like i have a 100 pound weight on my chest, I try to scream, but can't. He says " Cant scream Emily. No use, no one will hear you." Just then I wake up and shoot up and I could feel my nails digging in to someones skin, I look over to see Tanner sleeping with no top on and with  his arm around my waist, I remove my hand from his arm and he moves a little I lay back down and he pulls me close, and I fall back asleep. I wake up to the sun light in my room, shining at my face, I look over to see Tanner not there. I frown a little then I hear silent foot steps coming for my room.

I get up slowley and grab my hair curler and head over to the door, the door knob turns slowley and i get ready to hit the person coming in to my room, but then I see his curly hair and it was just Tanner. He jumps a little, trying not to scream. I put down the curler and head over to my bed, I sit on it and slide the covers over me to keep me warm, Tanner walks over with nothing but boxers on and says " Looking good with my top on there babe." And he winks at me and sits down beside me and pulls me close, I put my head in his lap and he starts to run his fingers threw my hair and I fall back asleep, I wake up to feeling hands around my waist and someone pressed against my back, his grip becomes lose and I turn over to see it was just Tanner.

I trace circles on his stomach till he wakes up, he smiles and leans in and gives me a kiss i can feel him smile as he licks my bottom lip asking to enter his toung in my mouth, I let him. How could i refuse. He pulls me on top of him not breaking the kiss, he sits up with me still on him and he pulls at the bottom of my top, he kept on doing that, i finaly got tired of it and took it off and threw it on the floor beside the bed. I could feel him start to smile cause of the kiss, I ran my fingers threw his curly messy hair and he bit my bottom lip gentaly, and I let out a soft moan. I break the kiss and say " Im going to get you back for that."  He laughs and starts to run his hands up and down my belly, I let him do that cause it felt good, I could feel him gettting hard. I laugh a little and get off of him and head to my personal bathroom. I come out 10 mins later to see him sitting up waiting for me, this was payback for what he did.

I grab the top off the floor and slowley put it back on and walk to my closet to get short shorts. He puts on his sweat pants and walks over to get his top off of me, I giggle a little as he trys to get it off but he did not get it, he then pulls me close and starts to kiss me, he started pulling the top off and he broke the kiss and laughed a little and put it on. I head to my closet again to get a baggy top, i finaly found one but it was my brothers top, and i could not wear it cause it reminded me of him to much. Then i got a flash back, driving in the car coming home from a party with my 17 year old brother ( I was 14 and Tanner was 14) and a red light hit and he never stopped in time, he tryed to avoid the train that was ciming cause we needed to pass train trackes, but the gate went down behind us and we only had about 3 seconds to get across he looked at me with fear in his eyes and the train hit us, his side was crushed and he grabbed my hand and looked at me for one last time and passed away, I on the other hand got only 4 broken ribs and a bump on my head and a broken leg, the car flipped and I was now crying trying to get out as soon at the train slamed on its breaks, and stopped 30 seconds after, crying and I rememberd that my brothers hand was still holding mine, I started to scream for help and passed out. All i could remember from that night was that my brother was dead and I was alive.

I felt tears go down my face and hands aroung my waist and I heard Tanner say "  Its gonna be okay, you are okay Emily, he is in a safe place now and he is looking over you every second of every day." I then felt his hand drying the tears from my face. I put my face against his chest and I whisperd something " I never want to lose you Tanner."  He pulled me closer and cupped my face with his hands and kissed me and said after " You will never lose me."