Trust no one?

first day we met

October 15, 2019

As I sit here I'm looking into the water. Asking myself why am I still hanging on. What makes you not tear apart. Well, I can't answer any of my thought. Because I'm still searching for the answer. Something inside of me telling me to stay strong. They need a role model who can show what life holds. show them you can accomplish anything.

I'm walking towards my path there are two paths. One mistake can ruin everything. So here are two paths. One mistake you can ruin everything. Path two I could leave my life.  Option two is I could go talk to people. On the other side but the catch. They no respect. Which path will I choose....side of me.want to the beach. another side of me saying come back.Some other time? why out of the day. Did I want to come here? I never wanted to open a new path. Waiting for me to make a mistake. 

Something tells me to stay and write more. I just took one step to the path. my gut telling me to walk away. The heart wants to know what will happen. same time I so know what will happen. just going to trust my gut, walk away.