Nov 7th 2015 - Empty

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Well recently i started to play counter strike a lot more and stream a lot more and wanting to focus on those two things because that's just what i like doing. I also recently broke up with one of my exes named Chris and i'm pretty sure were better without each other. But that's not hurting me or anything at all. Its been a month and i'm completely over it. Going back to counter strike and streaming. Streaming has been stressing me out also because i don't stream on daily basis anymore like i use to, since i started school and been focusing on that. My streams been really successful and i'm very proud to have all those people who support me and love to watch me. I'm just sad i cant do any of that anymore. I'm stressing on streaming because i feel like i deserve a twitch sub button. It's something i really need and want to complete my streaming career. I know i can never ever earn that because i don't stream 3 times a week maybe like 2 times. Counter strike, Klexane my  friend were recently on a team called regyulate. We want to try out for the next season next month. But the team reygulate didn't turn out so well at all. Everyone sort of went their own ways. So Klexane and I started a new team called "Estim8". We picked up a guy named Shanks and he's amazingly good at counter strike and very dedicated like Klexane and i. We all really want this and so far its great. Were trying out hardest to pick up out last two people to fill up the team, but we did find a guy name ojoe. This kid is good but disappoints me because today he just left mid game to hangout with his friends because of hot girls. Those girls better be fucking hot , and he must at least fuck one if he wanted to ditch team practice for that. "Shows how dedicated he is". I also feel like im holding the team back because my computer been acting really stupid and its irritating me. I cant play counter strike at all but other games i can. Help? I honestly cant wait till we have a full team that wants to be dedicated, play and have that team bond, and wreck kids next months Kappa. I love those two people Klexane and Shanks, only people i ever talk to. My mom that's a different story. Yesterday her boyfriend Cory and her went to pick me up at school and i came out of school late because i was really hanging out with friends, but i actually am worried about my grades because Friday was the last day of the quarter grades. I have mostly B's in everything but close to an F on English. My English grade has been really bipolar lets just say that. Its been at a B then drops to a C then to an F, Then goes back to a C , Then Drops to a D. So i'm really not okay with that at all. Anyways my moms been telling me that i'm spending to much on my game and slacking off. Honestly i'm not okay. Because I've been trying my ass off to fucking get my grades up because i promised her that my grades will be good and that i will not have gaming effect my way of learning and my grades. And she was just hitting me with all this bullshit and pointing out the obvious and she kept like repeating "It's just a reminder, i'm not Nagging".... Um okay? So just say it once not like 1,000 times. Buts it whatever doesn't bother me because its true but not true. I maybe kinda got really upset for no reason because i hate hearing the truth. Recently i have also been reunited with all my friends. I'm friends with my ex's i don't know if that's a problem LOL, and friends with the people in the past and i just love it, and still currently making new friends. The only person i ever talk to and care about for right now and has been there for me and helped me is "Zirple". I love him so much, so does my family, because he's done a lot and plus has been there for me, and all the above. He's keeps me on my toes all the time. Well sorry for the long ass paragraph but its just an update on my life and just trying to get back into writing because i assume you guys want to know everything that is going on Lol. Love you all. :^)