Everything I Ever Wanted. [ONE SHOT]

Here i was curled up on my bed, tears running down my face, it was another horrible day at school.

Everyday i have to try and put up with people yelling stuff at me as i walk down the hall ways to the classrooms or even out in the play ground, most of the stuff was very hurtful and hit my heart like a bullet. Trying to get the motivation in the morning to get up and go to school felt like i had a million anchors holding me down telling me not to go but i had to, i had no choice, i dreaded it.

I soon fell asleep from crying which was nice, it was peaceful, nobody could say anything to me or hurt me in anyway, i was in my own planet, i could do what i wanted, say what i wanted and not be judged for it in anyway.

But my sleep was short lived when my alarm woke me up notifying me that another shit day was about to start.

"Hayley dear get up i have breakfast ready" my mum said

"ok" i mumbled quietly and slowly pushed the covers off myself

My head felt like a tone of bricks had hit me from crying myself to sleep but i tried to egnor it and walked down stairs to the kitchen where my mother saw me

"good morn--" she said and looked at me and saw my face

"honey are you ok?" mum asked me

"yeah im fine" i said, when really nothing was fine at all

"are you sure, you dont look ok" she questioned

"yeah yeah im all good" i said and fake smiled

After eating breakfast i walked up to my room and got changed and headed to the door.

"have a good day sweetie" mum yelled out to me 

"sure: i said and closed the font door behind me and climbed into my car.

I started the engine and started blasting New Found Glory though the speakers of my car to make me a little bit more happier before i dove into the gates of 'hell' 

I parked my car and grabbed my bag and swag it over my shoulder and walked into the school.

As soon as i entered the hallway everyone started to stair at me as i walked to my locker, once i reached my locked people were standing in front of it not wanted to move out of my way

"umm excuse me" i said quietly

the people turned and looked at me

"no fuck off you dirty rat" they said to me, i looked at the ground

"oh what? you going to go cry to your mummy now?" one girl said

I turned around and walked off fast and headed towards the bathroom while more people started to yell things at me.

"yeah walk away you filthy slut"

"go fucking kill your self, your a waste of fucking space and oxygen"

I started to run and accidently ran into someone knocking my bag and books to the ground.

"your so fucking useless" the person said that i ran into and they kicked me in the ribs while i was down picking up my books.

Once i gathered all my things i contunied to run to the bathroom with tears running down my face, i had only been here for 10 minutes and everything is happening again.... just like yesterday. just like last week, just like last month, just like every damn day of year for the past 3 year that i have been in this town.

Im not even sure why im getting bullied so much, i haven't done anything to anyone but i feel like i have taken enough harsh words.

Once i was in the bathroom i saw one of my best friends Dakota standing in front of the mirror doing her make up and noticed me run in crying.

"wow hayley are you ok?" Dakota asked 

i shook my head and Dakota hugged me

"it's ok" she said

"no nothing will be ok, i have had enough of beening bullied, i cant even look at my facebook, tumblr or twitter with out seeing someone telling me to go kill myself or something.... maybe i should just take there advice." i said and walked out of the bathroom and got to the car park to my car.

I looked behind me and saw Dakota and Josh my only friends running after me.

"Hayley dont listen to them, there all fucking dick heads" Josh said

"no no no i cant take any of this shit anymore" i said

"please don't anything stupid Hayley" Dakota said

I climbed in my car and rolled the window down

"bye guys, i love you." i said and started the car up and drove home knowing nobody would be home.

i parked my car in the drive way and walked inside and headed up to my room, tears still running down my face i opened up my cardboard doors and throw all my clothes to the ground, i found a belt and put it on my bed, i walked over and put my ipod in the dock and put my favorite New Found Glory song on called Vegas and put it on repeat, i ripped a page out of my school book and wrote a note and put it on my bed and grabbed the belt and walked to the cardboard, i tyed the belt to a railing my clothes were handing and left a loop big enough to put my head through, i walked around my room one last time looking at everyting im leaving behind, but it was for the best and nobody could stop me, i picked up my phone texting a message to both Josh and Dakota saying

Im sorry guys, 

i will miss you heaps and i love you both

thanks for being my friends and being there for me though all of this 

but i have had enough and i cant deal with this any long.

goodbye my dear friends, we will meet again. <3

After i pressed send i walked over to my cardboard and stood on the box and put my head through the loop...

"welp goodbye everything" i said and took one last breath and kicked the box out under neath me.

Death, its a courious thing, i used to be so scared of it but im not anymore that i know how it is, its quiet peaceful, its like im only sleeping and im in a dream again execpt i cant wake up out of this one and i never want to be because its everything i ever wanted.....