Finding myself in him (Black Guys and Gals #1)

Chapter 1

Megan's POV

Days after days. I need to do this days after days.

I step in front of the mirror and check out myself. I am fat. Everyone says that in school. It hurts. It hurts a lot and I don't know what else to do anymore. I tried diets and lost some weight so I am not that bad anymore but I still got bullied.

I sighed putting on a button up shirt and jeans. I grabbed my jumper and bag. I won't look better. I thought that maybe I will have some people who likes me in high school but no.

My parents are rich. They are never at home. They don't care what I am doing or what the others do to me in school. They didn't see my bruised body from last year. They didn't see my ripped clothes from last week when I came home.

I don't have friends either. I don't have anyone. They think I am a fat freak. I have a boyfriend. His name is Alen Smith. He is a cute guy. Me and him are together now 6 month and we are going out today and we might spend the night together. I couldn't wait to spend my night with him.

I smiled and blushed at the thought. I wanted to be with him. To get rid of my virginity. I just want to lost it before I go to university.

I got accepted to Melbourne Univerisity. It's not far from here but I don't care. I couldn't wait to go and start new. September is still far ahead I just need to get my exams sorted and then I can move out and start new.

Dreams.

I walked into my kitchen and grabbed my lunch. I heard the bell ring and I quickly run in and open the door.

"Hey Meg." Alen waved to me and I smiled.

"Hey. I am almost ready."I told him.

"Okay." he walked inside and I quickly packed everything in my bag. Food, journey, books, money. I felt his hands around my waist and he kissed my cheek from behind. His cologne made me wrinkle my nose but it's fine.

"What are you doing?"I asked him swallowing  hard.

"Just greet you how a boyfriend supposed to greet you..." he mumbled giving me small kisses on my cheek and then he pushed my hair away so he can kiss my neck. I shivered but it wasn't a good one. I froze.

"Alen..." I whispered and swallow. "We should go."

"What if we skip?" he asked me turning me in his arms.

"You know I don't skip." I tell him.

"I know but for ones with me."he mumbled leaning in to kiss me. I turn my head away and he kissed my cheek instead of my lips. "Meggyyyy please..." he whined. "We are together 6 months now... I should get some." he mumbled. I rolled my eyes at his stupidity. I wanted to have sex with him a long time too but he always said I am sorry. Study night. or have to help my mom or  we are out with the guys.

"Alen..." I peck his lips. " Tonight." I smiled at him and grabbed my bag and jumper.

"It better worth it..." I looked at him and shake my head.

"You are an idiot sometimes." I tell him. He laughed.

"But I am the only one who is talking to you and touch you." he laughed and I stopped. I never knew why he is talking with me or being my boyfriend.

"That's true." I swallowed hard and opened my front door. I wanted to cry but I was sure there will be at least once in school when I will cry in front of everyone. They always try to humiliate me and it happens every day.

Not long now.

Only a month in this hell and I am free. I will move to Melbourne and into my flat then everyone will forget me.

I waited for Alen to walk out so I can lock the door.

"Sorry, babe." he told me and I just locked the door and started to walk to school.

"Whatever. Let's go." I heard him jog after me and he grabbed my hand.

10 minutes later we walked into school. I went to my locker and see the cheerleaders and footballers talk. Alen was one of them. I don't even know why he was with me? I honestly don't know.

"Hey Alen! Did you finally fucked her?" one of them asked him as I was packing into my locker. No. It's only morning. Please.

"No." he laughed. I rolled my eyes.

"I won't ever touch her." an other guy laughed at his comment and I shut my locker door looking at them angry.

"Fuck off." I told them and stormed away from them.

"Thanks guys." I heard Alen telling them and they all laughed. I should scream at them. Though I tried that already. There is not a chance to stop them.

I felt a hand on my shoulder and I turned back.

"Alen leave me alone." I growl and shake him off.

"They are just making jokes...." he tried to defend them as usual.

"oh yeah... They think I am a joke." I told him. He shakes his head.

"Will we meet after school?" he asked me putting his hands in his pocket. He was cute this way. I think that was the other thing what I started to like in him in the last couple of months.

"Sure." I told him and walked into my first classroom. There was only a couple of students inside so I just sat at the back of the room. I sighed getting out my books.

Then some of the footballer walked in. Ugh. I forgot they are in the same class as me. I tried not to look at them.

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