He loved her tho she did not love him

She was your heart...

He loved her, he cared for her; would do anything for her if it would make her happy. She was his everything, she was his Kitten, and her name was Ichigo.

She's not in love with you...

He loved her, but she didn't love him. Kish bit his bottom lip as tears brimmed his golden eyes, he loved her so much, that it hurt. She was smart, funny, stubborn... And beautiful.

She's in love with someone else...

And God was she beautiful, Kish couldn't believe how beautiful she was. She was too good to be true. But she was off limits, she was in love with HIM.

Your world is falling...

Masaya... HE was Ichigo's love, HE was whom Ichigo wanted to be with. And oh how much did Kish despise him. Masaya was taking her away from him. Kish ran his fingers through his deep green hair and took a few deep breaths.

It's all falling apart...

Kish shook his head and stared as his hands. He didn't want to remember Ichigo, but he couldn't stand to forget. She was everything to him, without her his world would fall apart.

Kish would cry every moment when he was alone, and cut himself to feel something different.

He couldn't stand the pain any longer, his arms were sore and full of bleeding cuts, his heart was breaking he didn't know what to do next.

It's getting harder...

Pai and Tart had tried to help Kish through his depressive state, they kept telling him that things would be okay, that he needed to hold on a little bit longer.

But how could he?

There was no chance for your love...

Ichigo didn't know that she was hurting Kish, she was clueless and stuck in her own fantasies. Kish knew that Ichigo didn't care, Ichigo COULDN'T care. He was her enemy, and Ichigo was his.

If I can't have you, I can't live...

Kish rubbed his eyes and looked at the knife resting on his bed, he didn't want to live without Ichigo. She was a big part of his life, and without her; his life was nothing.

Don't pick up that knife...

He picked up the knife and shivered, this was his choice. This was what he wanted to do, this was what he said he would do if he couldn't have her.

Say a prayer...

Kish bit his tongue and held the knife to his throat, biting back his tears.

How to die...?

He wanted to die simple and quick, he didn't want to feel more pain than he did already.

A moment's hesitation...

Was it wrong in wanting to go to heaven for ending your life yourself? Would God be angry at him?

It doesn't matter...

Kish didn't care whether he went to heaven nor hell. He just wanted to stop the sadness that Ichigo was causing.

It's not your fault...

Ichigo wouldn't understand, and if she couldn't understand Kish would blame himself for the pain.

Take a last breath...

Kish drew in one large breath and closed his eyes, it was time.

Forever and always...

Kish only thought of Ichigo as he swiped the knife across his throat, then all thought disappeared.

He was gone... Never waking, dead.

But there was ONE thing Kish did know.

Was that he would always love Ichigo, and that the pain in his chest.

Was gone.        

                                  [THE END]