Holy Ground (Zianourry) (BOYXBOYXBOYXBOYXBOY)

For All That We've Been Through

Zayn's P.O.V.

They were getting suspicious. I know they were. While that may have just been concerned with my well being I don't think I was ready to tell them. So I did the only thing I thought to be reasonable.

I ran away.

I just went to stay with a close friend for a few days. I didn't want to go back. Not right away at least. I knew that when I go back the questions would come.

I know the only worry because the care about me. But I don't want to be the cause of their with. I suppose running away wouldn't have done much to help with that.

On Wednesday I realized they needed to know. I might not have wanted them to but the needed to. So I went back. I walked straight into Liam's room and started crying into his chest.

When I woke up I had just about changed my mind. When Liam asked what was wrong I just brushed him off.

But when Louis walked into that room and saw me I saw that he almost burst into tears. He ran over to me and instantly had his arms around my neck. I couldn't keep doing this to him. To them.

"Guys." I said over Louis' shoulder. "I think I'm ready to talk."

The second those words were out of my mouth I was pushed down into a chair while the boys took up the remaining four.

"What's going on, Z?" Harry is the first to ask.

"I...um... While I was going through the whole... Liking you guys thing, I kinda stopped eating. I was worried that I wasn't good enough for you guys so I thought maybe if I lost weight you would like me more. And after we all got together it was too hard for me to pick back up again. The only reason I ran was because I was worried that if you guys found out you wouldn't want me anymore. You were getting suspicious and I panicked."

The boys all started at me with looks of horror on their faces and I thought then that they wouldn't want me anymore. I was disgusting. That's why when I was crushed in a four way hug I was taken by surprise.

"Oh, Zayn. Baby. We would never leave you over something like this." Liam reassured me as he ran his hand though my hair. "All we're gonna do now is try to get you back to being able to eat again. And if we can't do it then we'll find someone who can. Yeah?"

I just give him a teary eyed smile and nod my head.

"Good. Now that that's settled how about we go watch a movie." Louis suggests and that exactly what we do.