So life has been good I guess that's what the usual person would say but for me tbh life has been lonely there has been only 2 people in my life that have ever made me feel not lonely anymore but of course both of them don't talk to me anymore after we broke up😫. There was just something about those to people that made me feel so special I can't even explain how special they made me feel but with the first one she was my best friend and then we started to date because we both liked each other and of course it didn't work out she said she wasn't ready to date. So then a couple months go by a fine a new girl and I was like ok I'll give it another try because this girl is beautiful and so sweet so I'm like wow this is actually going pretty well. I was so happy and she always told me she was happy till I woke up to a get saying she has to end it because her parents hate me because I'm a trouble maker and I smoke pot well what I have to say to smoking it's a thing people do it. It doesn't control my life and it doesn't make me a bad person for smoking it still makes me human. But let's get back to the second girl so after that I tried to talk to her and tell her I would quite pot and stop trying to get In Trouble and so she was like nope and the next day she had a new guy so I guess I wasn't good enough for her😢. I wonder if I will ever be good enough for anyone? I try all I can to be the guy that the girl wants and not what I want so tbh I am done trying I'm just going to let the girls come to me because I am sick of getting hurt💔💔 when I get into a relationship it's because I see potential and yeas I don't want months I want a life time😊. Sorry I just ranted I had to get it out have a goodnight everyone be safe out there and don't let people change you. You be you and that's all anyone can ask for ☺️
