Complicated

Suicide mission

Chapter 5

In zanes living room. With zane. He had brought me some lemonade while I wait. Zane said his mother would be out in a minute but I had been some time. When she finally arrived, everyone was tense.

"O okay vevi. About your mom. Do you know what happend to her that night".

"No. But I have faint memory of it. She aaid she was going to a party. Dad was out of the house. I dont know anything else". She nodded. Zane looked scared.

"Your mother went to a party with me and a few other friends. 3 girls and about 2 guys. We were at a bar when one of the guys approached your mother. He started flirting but she rejected him. It angerd him and he forcibly kissed her. Your dad walked in right there. The moment grew tense. But he just walked in slow and calm. I was surprised.

But when he sat down he drew something from his jacket. A gun. He turned around and was crying sliently. He held the to his head. Yoyr mother cried out pushing everyone away but before she could het to him. He pulled the trigger. He whispered one thing before he died.

I never loved you. Your money. Your body. They were nice. If I cant have that, then lifes pretty unpleasant.

After that your mom brome out crying. She ran to him but it didnt matter. She put the gun to her own head. I tried to up to her but 2 or 3 girls held me back. She whispered that whatever happend she still loved him. Also said that she wanted someone to look after her kids. Vevi and mark. None of us knew she had kids. Ever". She was crying now.

I stood there in pure shock, hatred, anger, fear. My father....he. Mom had... Why. Why to me. Why didnt anyone know about us. Why was I so..afraid. I began crying as well. I ran out of the house, both zane and his mother followed after me but I didnt care. He didnt.... She didnt.... No one did. I ran into the nearest shop, zane close on my tail. His mother, out of sight.

I run to rhe back and found what I was looking for. Kitchen supply. I stopped and looked around. Zane stood out of breathe in the corner.

"You love me right zane". He looked at me comfuse but nodded.

"You love your mother right". He nodded again.

"What if I said I didnt love you. At all. You were merely a game, some what a waste of time". Zane looked both shocked and hurt. He shook his head and smiled.

"I wouldnt belive you. Your not like that".

"What if it was true. What if everyone turned there backs on you". I said. I slid a knife out of the packaging.

"I wouldnt belive them". He said calmly.

"You know me so well zane. I could never stop loving you. But I could stop loving myself. My brother. My dad. My mom. I could stop loving everyone". Zane stood there emotionless.

I took the knife and slowly slit it doen my arm. I trickle of dark red blood slipped out. Zane ran and got a towel. He slowly took my knife. My bloodstained knife. I threw the towel off and the blood began to flow again. I started skipping down the allys, leaving a trail of red.

I hoped out of the store. Live without love. Catchy.

I started climbing on my house. The roof. I was tired. Walking all the to my house, while zane followed like a lost puppy. I always hated dogs.

I climbed on my roof.

"Zane did you know that my parents were married". He nodedd.

"One of the things you say at a wedding is death do we part. I bet thats what my mom was thinking when she pulled the trigger". He starred emotionless at me.

"I wonder what the last breathe fells like". I say cracking a small smile.

"If your the only one I love the we should get married". Zane looked confused.

"Lets jut say were married now". He looked even more confused now.

"But now you broke my heart I no longer love you. Oh my how could you. I think we should be seperated but im someone who keeps a promise and if were married then theres only one way zane". A teardrop slowly slipped my eye. I felt so differet now. I felt as if zane had truly broken my heart although he did nothing. I jut wasnt ready to hear what my mother did.

"Death do us part". I said closing my eyes, fallinf back.

He grabbed my shoulder, then my hand.

"I dont wanna". He said smiling, slightly laughing. I looked shocked at him. He was laughing.

"I love you vevi. Dont go". He whisperd in my ear.

I cried harder that night then I ever had. I was back to me, instead of whoever I was changing into. I cried and screamed.

I ended up staying at zanes house for the night. Zane left a note for my brother at the door.

I laid on the couch.

I could fell me slowly drifting away but I had so something to say.

"S...sorry". Was all I managed to slip out.

Stupid me