Tried // h.s.

one

I hate everyone. I'm serious I do. I don't know when I became so cold. Well, maybe it was me and dip shit broke up. Or maybe it was when I crashed my car, hmm. Either way life sucked, but hey it could be worse. Right now, i'm just trying to finish college. We'll see how that goes though its barley my first day. I might just end up staying in my dorm watching greys anatomy until I get dropped. I wish I was kidding.

I walked through the halls looking only at the ground. I didn't wanna make that awkward eye contact with anyone where you don't know whether to be polite and smile or to look away. I had my last bit of clothes that I was bringing up to my dorm. My roommate hasn't showed up yet. I'm hoping shes someone who is never here though because who needs friends. When I get to my dorm I unlock the door and just throw my pile of clothes onto my chair. Instead of setting everything up I laid on my bed and starred at my wall thinking about what in the hell i'm doing in L.A.. My family lived 4 hours away and I still don't know how I feel about that.

I hear the door open I quickly sat up and my eyes shot directly towards it. I see this preppy brunette walk in.

"HI! You must be Kyla." She waved to me. She looked a little too peppy for my liking.

"Hey, and you're Caitlin right?" I smiled.

"Uh, my name is Elizabeth. I go by Beth though." She nervously laughed while I frowned and furrowed my brows.

"Who the hell is Caitlin then?" I really don't know where I got that name from, but oh well. Preppy started laughing and shrugged. She started doing who knows what while I went back to laying down thinking about life. Its something I did a lot probably because I wasn't sure if I hated life or not. Randomly I started thinking about a tattoo I wanted. Two roses on my thigh. I've wanted it for a while, but wasn't sure if I really was going to get it or not. I don't even have a car. I wrecked it before coming here. Insurance is still being a piece of-

"So, where are you from?" I'm cut off by my thoughts.

"Clovis, you?" I cringe thinking back to the horrid place of Clovis. I'm finally out though, thank god.

"San Diego. Its not really a big move for me. I'm sure yours was a bigger one. I'm still kind of nervous though." She rambles on.

"Eh, four hour drive to go back home its not too bad." I go back to thinking about the tattoo I wanted and before preppy could talk again I cut her off.

"Do you have a car?" She gives me a weird look, but nods.

"Why?"

I instantly grin. I've made up my mind i'm getting a tattoo.

"Wanna take me to a tattoo shop?" I didn't think it was possible to get an even weirder look from her, but it was.

"Well, I guess, um.. Can we go in an hour?" 

"Yeah, i'm cool with that." I nod. I lay back down and go through snapchat on my phone. I see that my ex updated and i'm not sure if I wanna open it or not. Its sad, but I find myself always missing him and hurting because of him. I can't help but open it and feel even more broken when I see him with a new girl. I smile only because I see him smiling in the snapchat. I lock my phone and try to stop thinking about him, but I can't. Its sort of weird how someone can become your whole world and make you feel important, but its also crazy how fast it can be torn down. Sometimes I want to text him, but i've gotten strong enough to know thats not what I should do and don't text him. But the thing is that i'm not actually strong this whole move is because of him. I didn't wanna be near him.

Before I know it the hour has passed and were getting into her car. Before I sit down I notice theres a one direction cd on the seat and I pick it up setting it on my lap once I sit down. I begin looking at the cover of it and take focus of the boys looks on the cd. The blonde guy is pretty cute.