Dear Matthew,
I've read your letters and they were breathtaking. That night I first saw your saddened state I had to lift your spirits, rather than they crush them more. I wasn't supposed to interact with anyone at the bar but I had to save you, to relieve my moral sanity. Your face was so endearing. You were dazzled by the thought that I had asked you to dance, that I let you lead me. You got the jest of it and I was glad to have asked you to dance even for the one song that we danced to. So I'm going to tell you the reason why I left in such haste that night and why you should forget about me. I hope after you read about your incompetence and naiveté that you'll forget about me, that we cannot see each other ever again.
I'm not someone you should pine your feelings for though. My presence at that bar was only for a quick debriefing of a job I had to do. This letter alone could jeopardize you and your quite calm life. I'm writing this letter to you in reply because your feelings can cause jeopardy towards me and the bartender. My job is not a simple desk job. I am an international spy. That night was a once in a lifetime moment we should both forget about. Don't wonder where I am. Stop coming to the bar. Forget about the dance we had together. These past 3 months that you've been writing letters to me have caused my identity to almost crumble indefinitely! It's a miracle that nothing horrible has happened to you because of your lovesick puppy act!
You and I cannot be together Matthew... It pains me to write this but you're just a banker that needed my help that night. I can't respond to your feelings from the letters you've written me but I'll treasure them forever. You reminded me that even in this cold unforgivable world that there was someone who still cared. Only knowing my name, a complete stranger about to give up on life, had the heart to remember my name and hope for a miracle. You've strengthened my resolve to do my job better than ever before. Your letters were therapeutic to me as well but they've got to stop I don't want you getting hurt because of my selfishness so this is where it ends.
I hope you live a wonderful life safe from the dirt and crimes of this world we live in. Find someone you can lead in dancing. Find someone who you can make your face into stupor once again as I did. Find someone you can life the rest of your life in happiness. These moments are what makes life move forward and I'll never forget that dance. Start anew Matthew and live.
Your lead spy,
Ramona
