Worn

Chapter 3

When I woke up I was in my room. I was so confused at the moment. I almost forgot where I was last night, but then I remembered: oh, yeah! I kissed Michael Stafford. I KISSED MICHAEL STAFFORD!!! I shot out of bed and ran into the kitchen. I saw my mom still in her pajamas, drinking coffee. "Mom! I...I" I said slowly, "what time is it?" Was all that came out. "It's eight eleven. Why are you in such a hurry?" My face brightened and I opened my mouth to speak, but I thought about if I should tell her or not. Awe, What the hell! "Mom, I had so much fun yesterday. I spent the whole day with Michael and-" "the pastor's son?" She interrupted. That stopped me. Oh, no! I kissed the pastor's son who I've only known for more than a week! "Um... yeah! We went to lunch, the museum, and the drive in movies." I say trying to keep my excited tone. "I heard about the movies. He dropped you off and you were dead asleep. He is a nice kid. I like him." She says getting more coffee. "Yeah... me too." I say nervously.

This is why I need a sister. The only girlfriend I have is Sam, but I don't know her very well. As I walked to my room I was in deep thought. Who could I talk to who understands? Then it hit me. Like a ton of bricks. I looked at the time and ran to the shower. The interview was at nine thirty. Once it's over, I'm going to talk to Darci. The only sister I have.

I feel the interview went well. I wasn't very nervous mostly because I was preoccupied. When the interview was done I left as fast as I could without looking too rushed. I dashed to Darci's. It felt like I hadn't been there in ten years. I took a deep breath and got out of the car. I rang the door bell and I was relieved to find that Darci answered the door. "Oh, hello, Park. How are you?" "Good, fine..." "Well, why don't you come in?" She said kindly, "would you like something to drink?" "No, thank you." I say, "I came here to talk." "Okay... Is there anything specific?" She says sitting down. I was about to pour out my little issue when I realized that would be selfish. What if she has a problem? "Yes, but, um...lets start with you first. How have you been?" "Oh, fine. Kat's in rehab again. But she's in a better facility." "What about her mom?" I ask. It's pointless to ask because I know the answer. "I think you'd know Miss Mel well enough to realize that she doesn't care. You know why she came to the hospital that day, right?" I nod. "Yeah, she pays the insurance and stuff so, whatever." She sighs. "Anything new?" I ask. She smiles a little then pushes it back. "Well, my parents are starting to talk to me more." Then there was silence. It was because I was thinking of asking the question that's been burning a hole in my brain for a long time. "What happened?" She seemed caught off guard, but recovered. "I guess I never really told you... well, here goes nothing." She takes a deep breath and starts like this:

"It was about the time of our Junior finals. Remember the party that Austin Mace threw? Well, I drove Kat and Luke there. You weren't feeling well." I nodded, "we pulled up and there were so many people there I couldn't believe it. We went in and said hi to Austin then danced. After half of an hour, I was thirsty so I went to the punch. Once I neared the table I could smell the vodka and various alcoholic drinks. I knew the punch was spiked, but I drank it anyway. Seven cups later I was drunk. I started to walk to the bathroom because for some reason the stuff made me nauseous, but on the way there I fell. Austin caught me and helped me to the bathroom. He held my hair back and everything. I never told you this, but I had a major crush on Austin and being drunk made it worst. He was drunk to, but not as much as me. We danced and I came up with this crazy, stupid, drunkard idea. I made him completely wasted and I took a couple more swigs myself. The rest was hazy... I do remember dragging him upstairs, though. The next thing I know, it's three thirty in the morning, I am really hungover, and I am naked in Austin's arms. I almost screamed, but realized I would wake up other people. I quickly found my clothes, threw up, and left. Luke and Kat took the keys out of my purse and left me to walk home. I stumbled my way through the streets and through my bedroom window. I took two showers and brushed my teeth five times so I wouldn't stink so bad. The next few months after that I noticed some weird changes. I took the pregnancy test and it was positive. I was really crushed because I couldn't keep the baby, Austin doesn't know he lost his virginity, and my parents. After that I decided to buy some bigger clothes and wait until I can get an... abortion. I made a secret appointment and used my savings to pay for it. When it was all done and over with I kept the secret for three months. I made the mistake of giving the clinic my last name and address. One day I came home and my parents were fuming. We argued for three hours. I decided that I would move out after that because it would be like that at my house everyday. That's when I asked you to move in when you were tired of your parents... I didn't even tell Austin anything..." It was silent again. Then I heard her crying. I move in to hug my dear friend. "Do you still like Austin?" She nods. "Then why didn't you tell him?" "I... was afraid that... that he wouldn't like me or... or be disappointed in... in me." She sobbed. "Lets go for a drive." I whisper.