My life

It all started in grade 6, I had just joined the air cadets, and I was a proud on at that, I even did my speech on air cadets, but things got hard after that, people would come up to me and call me names and tell me that the air cadets was for losers, well I just did not do anything. It was not a good grade but I guess it could have been worse, well soon grade 6 graduation came, I was so happy, well I won a lot of awards even one in French, so it was all good, people came up and so did my family with smiles, I was proud so I had forgotten about the bullying, but it all came back, but what can I do right I had no idea this was the first time I have even been a victim of bullying. soon summer was here no one could hurt me, I was happy.

Grade 7 was not a good year I was bullied again I wish I could remember what was done and said all I can remember is friends hurt me badly that I went home and started to self harm, I was not proud of my self, but I still did not know what to do.

One thing I do remember is an ex friend was calling me my friends last name, I was not happy and I had told her to stop, so I took my pencil case and just missed her head I swung at her, of course a teacher saw and told on me which was fine with me, I did not care. I did not let it hurt me, but hey we all get in trouble any ways.

Grade 8 was an OK year, people still bullied me but I tried for it to not get the best of me. I don't really know what happened to much because that was a few years back.

Grade 9 was another OK year people bullied but I did let it bug me to much it still hurt me a lot and I did not know what to do so I guess I should have done what my mom said let it go in one ear and out the other, now I was still a cadet but I was then getting bullied there so I did not feel safe. One girl was going around telling all these lies and so I got in shit almost every night, I even had a great boyfriend.

Grade 10 I have a lot to say about grade 10, well it started out OK I had a lot of friends, I had quit that cadets back in grade 9 so I had time. In October one of my friends came up all pissed and kicked me in the leg, I got on the bus and my eyes water up I tried to not let people see I did not need to be called names, also the girl from grade 9 the one telling lies well she told a lie to my boyfriend, and he believe her over me so I broke up with him I was so pissed being bullied at school and now losing my boyfriend, I could not take it so I cut.

I of course I did not tell my mom, because I knew she would be mad so I wore long sleeve shirts, I went home every day and cut. then in march another friend was really mean to me, I could not take it any more then I went home and my mom and sister had pissed me off so I took a knife after they all left and cut once again I had not done it since October, but I did have thoughts, then June I had just started hang out with another girl and she was in parenting, so she got a baby doll one of the mechanical ones, so I took it to my class for her, and I took it home for the night, well when I gave it back she came to me and said I could not watch it any more because she lost marks, so I asked her 'why?' then she started harassing me over text tell me for her baby sitters report, I told her she would get when I was done, well then she called me a bitch, I just cried I did not know what to do, I wanted to cut so badly but I couldn't I made a promise to talk when I felt that way.

Now it is summer I don't know what will happen, but all I know is in September, I don't know what will happen as I will be in grade 11. thanks for allowing me to share my story with you.

I am now in grade 11 I was having a great year I made a new friend his name was Jonathan, he was a great friend we all sat together at lunch me Matt Rebekah and Jonathan. Well last Friday I was joking with him and called him Jonny and he got really mad and won't even talk to me but he forgave another kid that called him Jonny so once again I am having problems. and I didn't know what to do any more. But after a while me and Jon became friends again.

Iblost yet again 2 friends so now I am down to 2, I lost one as her parents called me a homosexual which I am not, her daughter sent me all kinds of messages that she wrote but she blamed them all on she said I sent them to my self cause I was living in fantasy world. I did not know what to do she lied to her mom and dad and put all the blame on me so I can't be her friend any and I will never be her friend any more.

I lost the other one cause I told her something I did not want any one to know and she went and told the person about what I had said. I was pissed so now their both blocked on my Facebook. But I am feeling proud cause I have though of ending my life or even cutting but I have not do it I am over powering those thought.

Hey guys so I am always telling you the bad things let me tell you about something good,

Me and that friend made up well both of them I was very happy, she apparently told her parent the truth so it is all good I am happy 18 year old, and nothing will every change that. Now today me and my sister get along a lot better now too and yes we still have our bad days but at least we make up in the end.

They girl I talked about earlier- the one who say I was a homosexual- lied to me again so I am done being her friend I could not take it any more I was done with her bull shit.

I do hope that I don't have to update this story anymore with the bad and keep you guys up to date on the good.

Well I cut again I was 3 weeks clean now I am not, i was pissed of at my family, it was hard me almost did other stupid things but thanks to my best friend I am still here.