My Vents

wow im the worst

Its true. I am the worst.

And this is about to get really deep  so get ready with a box of tissues beside you.

Have you ever wondered what your friends and families lives will be like if you...... you like gone away? What would they do? I've asked this question to myself multiple times and I have no idea what the answer would be.

Well, on a happier note I told one of my best guy friends one of my deepest and darkest secrets and he took it really well. And I'm ready to talk to another person (which I've already picked but I'm guessing she doesn't have Wattpad) and I told her about *insert guys name here* and I also told her that it would be amazing if I told her what the secret is. I'm happy I have some people that would care if I'm not here.

And lately I've been feeling like I don't belong here. Here on earth. People always say:

"Meggie you're always so happy! Why do you think like that?"
Its called an act. I don't always act happy all the time and I hate that. Sometimes it even feels like I'm faking being me. I fucking love my friends and family to pieces, but sometimes it feels like no one gives a shit about me. And that's the worst feeling in the world.

I'm glad I have Wattpad to word vomit to you, and I personally think that typing is much more easier than actually talking. That's my personal thought on that, don't judge.

Well...... hopefully some of you can relate, and I'm happy if I have someone going through the same thing as me so I know that I'm not alone. Can you please dm me if you do? And maybe we can deal with it together. That would be amazing if we can get through it the other side.... alive.

Anyways, I am the worst at updating because:

1) Been busy with school
2) Been busy with finding another job (I do a paper round and I NEED another job NOOOOOW)
3) And cos I'm a lazy ass XD

I have no idea how to end these vents, so I guess its goodbye for now.

xx Meggie