First love (PhanFiction)

Chapter 5

🔹 First date 🔹
Phils pov

After the kiss me and dan shared we headed home to my apartment hands joined together, we were silent the whole way back, but it was a comfortable silence.
As we reached my apartment i unlocked the door and entered, dan would be sleeping in the spare room and he'd be moving in gradually over the next week, im so excited for him to move in with me its going to be so fun, i was away in my thoughts when dan lightly stroked my hair from my face, im so in confident around Dan since we started dating, I feel like I'm not good enough...

Dan must have noticed something was wrong, he lifted my head up and looked into my eyes, my eyes immediately darted the  other way my face blushing pink, he made me feel so shy "hey what's up?" Dan said worriedly turning my head so I was facing him
"I just feel....it doesn't matter, drop it" I say to Dan hoping he'll understand  and drop the matter, but as the stubborn Dan he is of course he doesn't
"Phil, tell me" he pushes, I turn to him and look him in the eyes he's so gorgeous how did I end up with someone as handsome as him, everyone knows I'm not the best looking "I don't deserve you!" I blert out, he looks angry? I can't imagine why I haven't said anything wrong..
"Phil..." He says, I can tell he's trying to keep his anger in but I don't see what I've done to upset him, I should have kept it to myself... I can be so dumb and pathetic sometimes
"Phil, your not dumb or pathetic I think your wonderful and if anything I don't deserve you, your amazing! You truly are, and I couldn't imagine not being your boyfriend, it's only been two days but I've fallen for you but that may seam cringe and your thinking shut up Dan you freak but I'm falling for you faster than I fell for I could ever imagine and I don't know how to show my feelings to you other than telling you how I feel, Phil lester don't think for one moment that you don't deserve me because trust me you deserve a lot better!" Dan takes a deep breath he looks frustrated and passionate at the same time he finishes and looks me in the eyes waiting for my response "Dan, thank you for everything for just being here for kissing me and having the courage because that makes it a lot easier for me I'm glad I got to know you because your the best thing that's ever happened to me" I say to him spilling out the truth "Phil I'm taking you out grab your coat Dan says zipping up his boots and grabbing his coat, I follow his actions walking out after him and locking the door.
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About 15 minutes later Dan takes me into a dvd shop, he scans around the shelves before he finds something
"Omg Phil do you like attack on Titan?" He asks
"Never watched it" I reply, as I do so Dan puts in all of the attack on Titan DVDs claiming I must watch them, we continue our search for a film when I come across 'the hunger games' "Dan" I call picking up the case " How about the hunger games" I grin, " perfect he reply'a taking it from my hand and putting it in his, taking all of the items to the check out..

After we paid we start walking home when I turn to Dan " hey Dan" he hums in response "I thought we were going out" I grin jokingly, "there's one thing I forgot to tell you Phil, I'm  at all font of humans nor being social with anyone other than you" he laughs but I know he's deadly serious "somehow that made me feel a whole lot better" I smile as we reach my house.

We plop down on the sofa after putting in the disc, I lay my head on Dan's chest, his arms wrapped protectively around me, I feel safe and secure in his arms, I feel at home.
Moments  later I find myself falling to sleep in his arms, I feel him lift me up carrying me into my room before lightly waking me "Phil" he starts "you need to get changed for bed" he smiles at my sleepy face before helping me up and going to get changed himself.

Moments later Dan knocks on the door before walking in in only his boxers, shit he's so attractive, my eyes run up and down his body taking in the sight, I prayed he didn't see me but the smirk on his face told me other wise "just having a cheeky look are we Phil" I blush in response, I was already tucked into bed when Dan came into my room, while I was playing a game of Crossy road, I feel Dan get into the bed beside me " Dan what are you doing" I ask trying to act as if I wasn't falling to pieces  slowly; "I'm sleeping here tonight Phil" he says Putting his arms round my wait and he drifts to sleep, well I kind of have no choice now but to sleep, and I do, and it's the most perfect feeling ; falling asleep in the arms of someone you love.
That's right I said it.......
I love Dan Howell
But of course I wouldn't tell him that..
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OOOOOOH this is getting cuterrrr sorry just casually fangirling
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