Impossible

Chapter 18

Chapter 18:

Instance

"Because people always leave. They always change."

Hanggang sa pag-uwi ko, hindi ko pa din nakakalimutan ang mga sinabi niya. Hindi raw siya naniniwala sa true love pero may mahal siya. Ang labo niya. Para siyang forever. Malabo.

Isa pa, hindi ko rin ma-gets hanggang ngayon ang sinabi niya tungkol sa akin.

"She was all that I wanted. I know she can make me believe in true love again, after my parents had split. She was everything that melted my heart. "

Pero bakit hindi si Sienna?

Girlfriend niya 'yun, di ba?

Bakit parang ang labo niya?

Somehow, I related myself in his story. But the other way around. Hindi siya naniniwala sa true love dahil hindi niya iyon nakita nung bata pa siya, samantalang ako, nakita yon pero simula nung mawala ang mga magulang ko, natakot na akong makita pa ulit ang pagmamahal na iyon dahil baka mawala lang ulit at hindi ko na kayanin. I'm afraid to feel that love and then get broken again because of it. I'm afraid to take risk.

I'm afraid to fall.

*Ring!*

I fished out my phone from my pocket and looked at the screen. Masaya ko itong sinagot nung mabasa kong si Miss Grenda ng DreamHaus ang tumatawag.

"Hello, Miss! "

["Miss Yesha, I called to ask when are you going here with Mister Sirk, seems like the elders are excited to meet him."]

"Oh, yeah I forgot to tell you earlier about it. Is DreamHaus available next friday? I wasn't able to attend Lola Barbara's birthday party. I was rushed to the hospital. Please send my apologies to her. "

["Yes. So I'll tick it in next Friday then. Sure, I'll tell Lola Barbie."]

"Lola Barbie?"

["Yes. Lola Barbara's nickname. She told us that."]

"Haha!" natawa ako. Ang groovy talaga ni Lola! "She's really funny."

["Yes, but the other elders once told me that sometimes they see her crying alone in her bed at night. Well, it's a part of getting old."]

Bigla akong nag-worry sa kwento ni Miss Grenda. Bakit kaya? Dahil kaya nami-miss na niya si Lolo?

I somehow felt sorry for her. Siguro kaya sabik siya kapag dumadalaw ako roon ay dahil nalulungkot siya. Para na daw kasi niya akong apo.

"I miss Lola Barba-- Lola Barbie." I sighed. Totoo. Namimiss ko na si Lola. Iba kasi yung yakap niya, may warmth. Kapag magkasama kami parang pansamantala kong nakakalimutan ang pagka-miss ko kila Mommy.

["Makikita mo naman na sila next Friday. They will be glad to see you, Miss Yesha."]

"Me, too."

["So, see you?"]

"Yeah. Bye, Miss Grenda."

["Take care."]

Ibinaba ko ang tawag at napabuntong-hininga na lang ako. Naiisip ko si Lola Barbara. At si Xenon.

Parehas kaming nagtatago sa likod ng mga kalungkutan namin.

"We all suffer by ourselves."

Mabilis na lumipas ang mga araw. Wala akong ibang magawa kundi tumambay sa rooftop, matulog, kumain, manuod ng TV, kumain ulit, minsan namamasyal ako sa mall para maglibang pero hindi ganun kasaya kasi mag-isa lang ako.