A teenager

a new bagen

Days passed by and hurted me in it's way ,, things were not that well , and i'm still holding my breath 

Sam isn't free enough to talk ,

moreover my friends are getting fake more and more everyday

my heart was about to break, until , one day in the English class my teacher was talking about blogs, when an idea lighted in my head ! 

i'm not a bad writer , i wrote some poems before, i should try blogging! i may get some attention than in real life ! and why not ?

i went back home and searched for blogs ! so , i found blogger , i singned up , and started writing ! i remembered Awkward Series ,, but maybe they will bully me if they knew my name ! maybe god create me just to get bullied! 

eh those thoughts killed me ! ,

so i made my blog without saying my real name , i called it ," A teenager " it was the perfect name in my head that time , cause maybe many kids in my age would feel the same about high school !! , and i was absolutely right , many teenagers read my blog and they said that my words are so relatable for them ! i really felt sorry for them ! 

but one day , a guy from my high school , he's not from the football team , i believe that those guys are stupid enough to read , he's only a hot guy , well .. not that much ,,!!

Mmmm , i'm sorry for lying , he is so handsome ! well whatever ,, he said that he liked my blog , and he wanted to see me ! i wasn't smart enough cause i wrote my hometown i noticed how stupid i am , but i'm sure not as much as the cheerleaders in our school ,

he wanted to see me to talk about what i suffer from , to make me feel okay and to help me , i freaked out , but i was too happy also , then i realised my personality is anonymous , i can't show my self for him , he would probably just make fun of me then or even walk away .

in that moment , my dreams crashed , i told him that i'm sorry i couldn't ,and i went to sleep .

next day i was with my friend Sara 

Me " you''ll never believe what happen last night "

Sara " what you get married in secret ? "

me " oh , funny " -.-'  " John , told me he wanted to see me "

Sara laughing " yeah , my joke was way better "

" i'm not kidding , he read my blog and he said that he wanted to m - e m.. "

and before i complete Sara opend her mouth and her eyes like she have just seen a zombie , but it was even worse!