Everything that happened is my fault. I mean, obviously you interact with people as you live your life and make choices based on the friends that you keep. Sometimes we have situations that get us hemmed up and we as humans fall from grace. It is possible to redeem yourself... but you will never get back the years that you lost trying to get back on the right path. How did I lose sight of the right path? A question that everyone asks themselves over and over again until they finally figure it out. I'm blessed that certain people in my family didn't give up on me and waited for me to figure it out. However, to the people in my family who chose to judge and ridicule me while I went through a very long mid life crisis, I forgive you. I hope someday you'll forgive me as well. So, yes.... It is my fault that I was unhappy in my marriage even though from the outside looking in, we looked like we had it all. Money does not buy happiness, and I was unhappy. My kids are the reason why I was finally able to make it back on the right path. Without them I would have most likely ended up dead. Counseling for my husband and I did not work like I expected, neither one of us was really willing to compromise, so things only got worse. I saw my own darling babies reliving my own dysfunctional childhood and it made my own problems worse. We had the best of intentions in the beginning of our relationship but somehow we grew apart instead of growing old together like we had planned.
