If Only

Chapter 9

Family is gone. House is gone as well, and along with it, so are my memories. That's where I had built my life; the house was where I grew up and built a life, a relationship with my parents and brothers. Just...gone. How could I have let that happen? I can't believe I trusted them, N.E.S.T. How could I have been so foolish?

Really? I thought what I was doing was good. Saving all those people, but now it feels like it was all for nothing. Yes, I protected many people. At the time, I loved it. I had somewhere to go to when it was all over, even though I had no one,

I was happy.

My house was somewhere I went for when I was frustrated. Especially in the past three years. That's where my family had always stayed, so that's where I did too. It was mine, mine to care for. Something I should have honored, maybe even more than I had.

The photos were gone as well, the house was destroyed completely. Ironhide obliterated it. The roof was on the ground, with everything in the inside underneath it. The only apart of the house that wasn't abolished was the simple barn in the backyard, my dads work house. I guess that was good.

We rode home in utter silence, absolutely no one dared to speak. Especially not to me. It was a long drive, one I have never taken on my motorcycle before. Even with its superspeed, I didn't dare use it. I stayed in the far back of the line of Autobots. Keeping a distance.

Sadly, it even began to rain in the end of the journey, drenching me completely.

At this point, Optimus offered a ride in which I declined rudely. Even with the rain and my broken heart, I still didn't want to be with anyone. who would? I guess, to think about it, they aren't to blame in reality. Probably shouldn't treat them like this either, but is still don't want to help them, never.

That's when I remember something, my computer! It still has a few things in there if the hackers haven't tampered with it. Hopefully not anyway.

Leaping out of my sulking position, I rush to my door, turning the nob and make my way towards the Autobot hanger. Where Lennox should be, he should know where its being kept. Almost slamming the door into the wall behind me, I reach the stairs and stomp up each step.

Lennox was there, and so was Epps along with a few other soldiers. The Autobots were standing around, a few I didn't know, but that's not on my mind right now.

"Where's my computer?" I snapped.

"What?" Lennox questioned, seeming confused.

"You heard me, where is it? I want it back."

"I..I don't think I can allow that."

"I don't care about your formalities, give me back my computer! I'm not asking." I demanded coldly, glaring at him.

With that, General Marcus had moved up who, I'm guessing, heard the entire discourse. He made his way towards Lennox and stopped in-between the two of us.

"Soldier, I think it would be fit to return her computer." He began, seriously.

I stood crossing my arms, tapping my foot for his reply.

"Alright, come with me."Lennox finally said, leading me down the stairs.

I followed, keeping my gaze to the front and off my sides. I was not going to say anything to the rest yet. Once making it to the door, I glance slightly back, to see everyone's sorrow filled faces. Quickly returning my face to the front, we walk to a back room where my two screened computer had been stationed.

Lennox lifted half of it while I did the rest and we carried it to my designated room. After setting it down on my floor, he looked to my desk where the other computer lied. Before walking up to it, and beginning to dismantle I stopped him.