" you are pregnant...." I stopped listening after my Doctor said that I really couldn't believe it I was pregnant. It wasn't to anyone I loved or knew that's because this pregnancy has come from rape .
Rape in a alleyway when walking home from work in a bar on a Thursday night at 12 o'clock in London.
" So I have a space free at the abortion clinic Monday at 9 o'clock....if that's what you want to do ." I broke out my state of denial and said " NO.....I mean no I.....want to think about it.....please.....I really don't know what I want to do I just want to think about it all ." my GP Doctor Simon Chambers. He is a little older than me has dark brown hair, blue eyes and is quite good looking he is about 40-45 he is a very good Doctor and a very nice man he is originally from Oxford.
He said " Doctor Aitken it's ok....I understand just know that you have to options in this and I'm here to help you ." he smiled at me I answered " I know I have two options....one to abort it and the other to keep it, thank you...and if you don't mind me saying what do think as a Doctor ? " he paused then went on "yes....and it's up to you what you do and you know that as a Doctor I have to say that I think half that you should abort it because it may remind you of what happened everyday and you wont get any help from the father, I already know that you don't have that much money and even though you are getting threw life you are doing it slowly but carefully but then as a Doctor and as a friend I say that you should Keep it. It will do you good make you happier because I know you aren't very happy and have wanted a child for years and years , I bet you could do it on your own you are a highly intelligent girl and would give this baby a good life and raise it well And I'm pro-choice so it's your choice ."
He just proved why I chose him to be my Doctor, he will tell me anything and everything, I don't know whether that's because I'm also a Doctor in medicine and science and thinks that he has to tell me more than everyone else because I may know it already but then I think he's just being the great and friendly person he is and the amazingly good Doctor .
I said " Thank you very much ." he said "it's ok for both things ." his intercom began to buzz we looked at it then each other I said " you can answer it ." " thank you ." " it's ok ." he pressed it and said " Yes Janet what is it ? " a woman's voice said "I'm sorry Doctor Chambers but you have gone over on your opponent by 3 minutes and you have someone waiting to see you ." he answered her with " ok oh Janet tell them I will be with them soon ." " ok sir, thank you ." " it's ok ."
He let go of the button then looked at me I said " It's ok I'll go now, you can see your next person ." " are you sure I can cancel all of the others today " " yes I am thank you very much and the needs of many are greater than the needs of one ." he smiled and said "ok if you need anything or just want to talk I want you to call me." " ok....I will need your number....that feels weird ." he laughed and found a piece of paper and wrote it down I gave him mine then he said " anyway it's not like you need to do any reading on this as you already know it."
I did a sad smile and went "yeah ." he said " anyway cheer up I'm sure whatever you do it'll be the right thing and for the best ." "yeah." "erm....have you told the police ?" "yeah and they said that they will try to find him ." " and what will happen if they find him ?" " I don't know I want him to have some part of it because it's gonna be his kid and well if I had raped someone and got them pregnant I would like to have a part in it I mean it's my child and who knows why he did it....but another part of me says no let him have nothing to do with it, if he did this to you who knows what he could do to you or the child . Who knows how many other people he has done it to, how many children he actually has. What type of person is he ? Does he work ? Would he be sorry ? Why did he do it ? Theres two many questions at the moment and well I just want to focus on the one of to abort or not ."
He nodded and said " ok...well I'm here every step of the way ." " thank you ." "it's ok." I stud up and put my coat on and grabbed my bag and said " Thank you very much Doctor Chambers ." I gave him a sad smile and he gave me one back then said "it's ok Doctor Aitken and please call me Simon ." I said " ok and please call me Becca , Becky , Bex , Beck anything....just not Doctor Aitken or Rebecca ." he smiled and said " ok ." he got up opened the door and passed me the piece of paper with his number on then said "Good bye ." I said " Good Bye ." then left I walked to the reception made another opponent and asked if they would give my sincere apologies to the person who had been waiting then left .
