Thunder

this is my life you cant have it

I stared out the window.

way out the window, looking for some sign that I had done the right thing.

but nothing.

I heard every thing bikes cars taxis foot steps voices...the rain. I was a pretty superstitious girl -I mean I wasn't into all that witch craft or potions or fortune tellers -no nothing like that but I did believe in signs, you know little things, like finding a penny on the side walk, or a single daffodil blooming in the winter.

but right now I had no sign I figured I just wasn't looking hard enough, but as clear as every thing was to see and hear I still didn't seem -enough, like looking through mud, like maybe if I was out side with a flashing arrow over my head telling me which way to go then maybe I could find it more easily.

looking down I felt a wiggle in my stomach maybe it was real or maybe it was my imagination, maybe I was so desperate for that little sign that I was becoming a nuisance in my own mind.

I turned my head and saw that he was looking too not out side but at me but some how I thought he was looking for a sign aslo. he took my hand and pulled me closer to him so I was sitting on his lap.

his name that I so rudely forgot to mention was landon, he was beautiful -a gift from god truly my own personal sign per say.

to any one he was more than beautiful he was a god in himself but what made him even more than that to me was his personality, so cliche finding beauty on the inside and what not but he was truly that beautiful on the inside sincere, caring, loving, things you only find in soap operas, and he was my other half, what he did contradicted mine but he also controlled what only I could make happen it was an interesting thing to explore.

''I promise it will be fine'' he murmured in my ear

the words did nothing for me but his voice was soothing, he joked me about it all the time but the only way I could describe his voice was like milk soft creamy flowing but solid-strong another contradiction.

I felt jittery and found many centuries ago that what I was doing releases that energy, anger, happiness, my emotions seemed to flow into what I do.

there where bowls on the dresser in front of the bed filled with thing such as grass, water, pebbles, ...gasoline.

I put my palm up, arm out, and it took very little time for me to concentrate. I've gotten better at it, I don't have to stare at a rock for 30 minutes any more for some thing to actually happen its like a muscle you accidentally move, one that you've never moved before, you get the feel of the muscle once you move it but once you loosen that muscle you lose it, you then try out every muscle to find it again. now I knew where that muscle was and I knew how to find it and I concentrated.

It felt like strings of dental floss where shooting from me all of me every single part. the water lifted in no real shape sort of sloppy no form just floating in the air. landon rested his palm on the bed palm up and the slosh of water took form a ,sphere a small one, I used more tingly strings that felt to flow from me and pulled air -a truly amazing feeling like pulling weightless feathers- into the bubble of water landon expanded the air making the water like the sheath of rubber around a balloon. he didn't move a inch or say any thing but slowly he made the bubble come to us I let my senses take over and let the little strings advert to my body so my hands where free and touched the bubble lightly so soft and gentle it had no restraint and my hand went past it into the air that felt different then the air around the room it was concentrated all mushed up in that little area a stretch for landon he wasn't used to doing that. it was packed in nice and tight and warm. he moved it back over above the bowl as my hand slipped out of its space it put my hand down and retracted those hypothetical strings the water splashed into bowl and the air gusted through the room. I looked out the window again and felt slightly disappointed not because that sign still wasn't there but because I felt like I had missed some thing like that sign had came but I looked out the window to late and it was gone. I also noticed the sun was starting to rise and it was time to officially start out my new life. we were in California naturally I was a summer person. I got out of bed and towed landon along as he stumbled grumpily behind me we went to the first room big already painted pink I didn't know when they had time to do that because we just moved in but I had no doubt they found away for every thing meant to be impossible. they were resting but not asleepnatalie and jake twins, girl twins. they were regular height lean beautiful like their father stormy blue eyes blonde hair what every father wished not for their child all those factors would make the job of keeping boys away hard. they opened their eyes and gave us both hugs hellos and what not. Jakeand natalie where perfect twins doing every thing together and doing every thing alike though thefashion sense was slightly off balance jake was the girlie rebel you know break my finger nail or chip my polish and ill beat you to death pink motorcycle delicately Punch the crap out of you kind of girl she was all into fashion neon every thing pink skinny jeans lacey tops all ways has a purse type of girl but natalie was some thing different she just a rebel beat the shit out of you just because, goes by her own rules type of girl for example use and dispose is her rule for guys that's what they basically do to the whole female species so why not do it to them is how she explained it to us thought we didn't like it landon couldn't really argue any boy who did that would have a daughterfather tag team beat down or her other rule for example no skinny jean goes un-ripped and she stuck true to that all of her jeans were skinny and ripped. she also rode a motorcycle not exactly some thing a parent wants their kid to get on but she's not my slave i cant force her to do much of any thing. they both had each others back though, and where pretty much joined at the hip for whichI was grateful. they took turns in the bathroom their make up Regine, they didn't need it obviously, I told them befor they where as bella said in twilight 'inhumanly beautiful' next was to my sons room they were both eldest being twins ofcourse two sets of twins .....two sets of vampire twins. lane anddake humongous young boys despite being twins lane had red hair and dake had black hair how ithappened I don't know lane had stormy green eyes courtesy of me and dake had very very very deep dark blue eyes like a navy blue. neither of them where asleep they both where working out sit ups pull ups as if it was normal they both stopped and walked with a grace and lithe that would makegazelles cry towards us I gave them both a hug my head in their chest due to the fact that they where a head taller that me. I smiled at them both ruffling their short hair which was cropped at the top of their head about 2 or 3 inches from a buzz cut. they where most defiantly different but so very alike both ladies men lane was a studier he liked the 'nerdy sluts' his words not mine and dake was abadboy and liked the 'slut sluts' his words again I've never heard the word girlfriend out of either one of their mouths. lane was polo khaki shorts sparies type of guy and dake was a sagging skinny jeans too tight shirt combat boots type of guy either way i figured I would let them blossom be who they want to be. they both went to the bath room to wash and do what ever they do again andofcourse inhumanly beautiful. all four of my children where gifts from god and I knew I didn't deserve it and some times I thought I got the wrong package that this life was for some one else. we went back to our rooms to get ready we had separate bathrooms and as we parted he let go of my hand but kissed my passionately. I dazely stumbled into my bathroom and got ready for school some thing I looked forward to I liked social interaction it was......sensual the feeling of warmth from just conversations with friends, friends that I didn't have yet but planed on making some this year. I looked like my kids all rolled up into one, dirty blond hair stormy dark dark almost black green eyes and some how......beautiful.? i put on my make up simple eyeliner on top and bottom lash line and mascara, some nude lip gloss to finish it off. simple right.. I took a shower and dried off losing time quickly some thing I wasn't used to. I put on the out fit I picked out the day before yellow skinny jeans and and green black and pink floral printed tank top and flip flops I, braided my bang to the side and put a few big curls in my hair. I didn't want look in the mirror because I knew I would think I over did it. I walked out of the bathroom ready to go and saw the man that made my heart stop figurativelyofcourse. he was wearing skinny jeans high-tops and an oh so fitted white t-shirt and the beauty tocompliment it landon had orange brownish hair and hazel eyes. I went to him and he enveloped me his arms his muscles constricting around me as if to never let me go. I sighed tempted to bolt the doors shut and never leave but I had kids to look after and responsibilities though I was a kid my self I was all ways told i grew up too fast and they were pretty much right. I got up and landonfollowed close behind we walked to the front room where the kids....... my kids...... our kids *sigh* waited dake was as usual dressed in skinny jeans combat boots and a navy too tight shirt lane was wearing a orange polo and khaki shorts and that brought a sense of reassurance that I knew my kids well. jake and natalie where identical clothing wise, both in blood red shorts that were way too short and I swear could see a vein in landons forehead throb actually so where lane and dakesthey where instinctively protective being a vampire and also being boys helped non at all but theydidn't say any thing. they both wore neon yellow converse and white hello kitty short sleevedhoodies they both had their hair up in buns and side swept bangs I thought it looked like some thing I would wear and as much as I am protective of my daughters I had to let them be who and what they wanted to be as long as it brought no harm to them or any one else. I sat down at one of the chairs and landon stood behind me. ''okay kids this year I figured we could do some thingdifferent to keep us incognito for a pretty long time and make every thing easier for every body so at school we will all be going as couples lane with jake and natalie with dake'' dake was the first to protest ''why girls don't wont guys with girls friends'' ''well that the point girls wont get supsicouis if their not draped all over you now can they'' I said smiling as I hopped down form the chair and we all headed out to the garage to divide up in separate vehicles me and landon got in the jeep myprecious jeep it was a mossy green and didn't have a ceiling or back and side coverings it was like the ones you see people ride in the desert like on the commercials. dake took natalie on the back of his motorcycle and lane took jake on the back of his motorcycle, we had plenty of motorcycles because they were like the second cheapest thing to a bike. and then we where off as dake and lane weaved through traffic we had to wait at stops and wait be hind other cars which sucked. then 20 minutes later we finally made it sandy creek high school