Teenage dream (Jian fanfic) SEQUEL

I forgot...

It was finally Friday and I came home from work with a smile on my face, surprised to find kian had set the kitchen with a romantic atmosphere. Dimmed lights, candles, dinner, and he even left a bouquet of roses for me. I smiled and looked at Kian chuckling "whats all this about?" I asked happily. Suddenly his proud smile faded. "Y-you don't know?" Kian asked, sadly. "Because you love me?" I answered in a question form. Kian nodded and put his hands on my waste with a returned smile "aaand?" He asked. "Today our youtube Chanel starts" i replied. Kian giggled and swept me off my feet, scaring me a bit. Our noses touched as he held my head near the ground and he then said with a smirk "and?" I tried to think of what else but I couldn't think of anything. "What?" I asked. His smile disappeared and he stood me back up normally, removing his hands from my skin. I frowned when I lost his touch. "Justin...it's our anniversary" kian said, quiet and sorrowfully. I stared at him, I couldn't believe I had forgotten. "Kian...I...I'm sorry I didn't-" I began but kian interrupted "it doesn't matter...I should've known you'd forget." I looked down at my feet and replied "I didn't mean to..."
Kian looked at me disappointed and stated "you seem to forget about me all the time...forget about us. You never make time for me, you cancel everything, all you do is work Justin. Work is all you care about isn't it!"
I looked up at him with tears in my eyes. "That's what you think? Kian I work so I can make you happy. I work so i can keep this roof over our heads and food on your plate because unfortunately I DONT SEE YOUR LAZY ASS GETTING A FUCKING JOB" I shouted. I didn't even think.
"FUCK OFF" kian yelled in reply, his voice startled me.
"You know what" I started, I grabbed the roses and threw them with all my strength at his chest "IM GLAD I FORGOT OUR ANNIVERSARY"
Suddenly I felt Kians hand strike me. It violently made contact with the side of my head and I gently held the spot, where it pained. I looked at kian in shock. He looked at his hand then at me. "Justin I-" he started. But I didn't even let him finish, I ran up the stairs into my room and cried. I hated myself. I hated that I hurt him so much, I hated that I raised my voice at him, and I hated that I disrespected his gift. I've never had the courage to cut, especially considering the fact I can't hide it, so instead I hit myself. I smacked myself in the head repeatedly, mentally yelling at myself to just shutup. To just stop. I dunno what I wanted myself to stop doing, but it was all I could think. I was thoughtless. I was frustrated. I was sad...